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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba                 Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| Not much this year I'm afraid... but that's because one huge gift is involved this time around.
-Video iPod -Land of the Dead: Unrated Director's Cut DVD -Entourage: the Complete First Season -Black hair dye (I just felt like adding this because I've always wanted to dye my hair black and this is as special of an occasion to do just that as any) What can I say? I even composed a list of stuff I might be buying with my x-mas money already this year.  It's safe to say that I've prepared myself for the big day of the last month in 2005. (edited by xXxHeadhunterxXx on 11-26-05 03:19 PM) |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| Computers getting infected with spyware is becoming a natural cause actually... I've already had to re-format my computer like what? 3 or 4 times because of this? It just comes to show you that no PC is entirely "spyware safe" no matter what kind of protection you have on there. | |||
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| Bravo!
I never thought it would have to come down to this in the first place, but anyways, welcome back, board.acmlm.org.  |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| It wouldn't be the end of the world for me. There are several other forums that I like to post at, one that I frequent a lot more often than this place. This isn't the only online forum on the net, I can live without it if I have to. I'm not saying I won't still come around here every now and then, I'm just saying that this isn't a first-resort forum by any means for me. | |||
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| I saw it (with a friend, that is)...
Yeah, the first HOUR of it. Then we both got kicked out because we were "in the wrong movie" says the guy working at the theater coming to kick us out.  Our parents bought us our tickets to see Saw II, dropped us off, we walk up, the guy doesn't let us in. What do we do from there? We wait it out a few minutes, swapped our tickets out for Chicken Little, and then went into the theater showing Saw II.
It was a great movie judging by what I actually DID see, but I don't think I've watched enough of it to completely judge it in any way. |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| I heard Jiri Fischer has been barred from any physical activity for 4 months. 4! The Wings can't put together a successful win streak without him at this point as he's one of the core younger players on that vastly aging roster. Without him, they're just too old to contend.
But that's okay because I hate Detroit, anyways (always have, always will). On a side-note, I did manage to go to the Canes game against the Leafs in Raleigh last night... oh, I can't believe the ref almost counted that last Toronto goal that went in when he blew the whistle. I so would've been pissed. <_> It was all fun in the game, though. I can be one of the arguable few that said the first Canes home game I've been to all season ended in a shootout, but most importantly, we won. YAY! |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba  Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| I have lololol on my PC and I do spyware checks every now and then on it. Most of the time, it says that there are no infections yet I can tell it's been running noticably slower than it did AFTER re-formatting it. I wonder why that is. | |||
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba  Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| Undertaker will probably just come into the SmackDown vs Raw match and destroy everyone, including Orton. I mean, what else is there for him to do now that Orton has been added to the Team SD roster? |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| Killswitch Engage-The End of Heartache
I believe this came out in late 2004, if not early-mid 2005, but anyways, this is a great album for listeners of the newer metal-core genre. The first song that attracted me into checking this album out was "The End of Heartache" (title track) off the Resident Evil: Apocalypse soundtrack. I later moved onto songs like "Rose of Sharyn" and "Take This Oath" and loved every track of this album since. Like the latter album I am about to mention, however, this is not for people who aren't immunized to hearing consistent screaming lyrics and minimal ACTUAL vocals/singing (though this next one does better in that respect)... Demon Hunter-the Tryptic I just bought this album today and I love it. If you can look past the croaking/moaning/screaming voice that make up a decent portion of the songs on this album (save for the choruses, which more than compensate for it), and if you are a fan of metal-core, this is a must buy. Who knows? The "dark-toned" nature this CD supposedly ingests may not be all that it's hyped up to be. I hear they're Christian-metal like POD (not to say their lyrics are Christian-like in any way, but the band themselves are). And there's also some alter. rock-metalcore mixed songs which might ease the pain up a little bit if you're not a fan of this type of music. Seether-Karma and Effect This album for me started with "Remedy" which I first heard off the radio and got hooked on it. The song eventually lost it's grip, but I was encouraged to listen to more. It took a few listens, but eventually I began to like "Goodbye Cruel World", "Burrito" "The One" "Truth" and "Because of me" and I love this album. Not something that keeps it's quality when listening to on a consistent basis, but gradually switching off to hear this album, at some point, might catch some ears. Those are some, and the only ones I will bother to go into detail to at the moment. |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba  Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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Demon Hunter-the Tryptic Seether-Disclaimer II Gotta love that metalcore (or do ya? ...But I personally do, at times that is) DVD: Shaun of the Dead Land of the Dead: Unrated Director's Cut* Entourage: Season One* Dave Chappelle: For What It's Worth* *=Denotes stuff I got for Christmas... but nonetheless I like it, each in it's own way. Dave Chappelle knows how to stir up laughs, be it in stand-up or sketch comedy, Entourage features some notable guest appearences (one from Scarlett Johansson, hmm....) and is an amusing show, and as far as LotD:UDC goes, I don't think I've seen a director's cut version this brutal before (but maybe I haven't seen too many of them, I dunno)... but I guess that makes it all the better, and makes for more eye candy in the end with realistic skin ripples and spilt guts and the like. The movie, despite the ending, was rather quite fun. No consistent zombie shootouts or anything like the Dawn of the Dead remake, with eventual, gradual pauses and shifts between action and dialog scenes. Good buy, as usual from somebody like George A. Romero. And I bought SotD today on DVD, and it's flat out hillarious. Nuff 'Sed about that. |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| Alls I ask for is to live a normal, peaceful life someday. Life as of late just hasn't been treating me like I truly deserve it (bad grades/struggles in school, girl/relationship troubles which have brought back haunting memories, and the like). I don't get it. Was it something I said? Really. What did I do to deserve all this? | |||
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| Just call her and try letting her know how you feel, in one shape or another. Too much time without any discussion can come back to haunt you. I learned that the hard way. | |||
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| (This should be stickied)
Have anything to say concerning your oh-so overwhelming and unsuccessful love life? Is it troubling you so much that you're beginning to feel depressed about it? Have you ever felt left out and misfortunate because other people have something or someone you wished you could have (I, of course, can relate to that)? If so, this is the place to do it. Don't let it get to you any further. Vent out all your sadness and frustration here. My love life has been nothing short of depressing. If there was but one word to describe it's saddening nature, it's this: TRAGIC. In more ways than one, I'm beginning to feel like I just don't belong in the love world. I feel like I always have flash backs to some of the most depleting moments in my life (all of which are girl-related of course) and I just don't know how much more I can take before I reach the end of a vicious and seemingly everlasting cycle of rejection. It all started in middle school with this one girl. Keep in mind that I was only in Middle School and had much to learn about love, but nonetheless I took it up the rear from somebody I really cared about. Yes, I said it right, I got bitched out, by somebody who wasn't who I thought she was. Call it a rookie lover mistake if you will, but it happened nonetheless. I was feeling down for a while, but I soon recovered, only to have love come back at me for more... The next phase then goes out to somebody I liked, and was told that that same person felt the same way by numerous people. I felt I was in the open and could make a move, but never did. Infact, I was a complete coward, waiting until the last minute to TRY and say something, and at that last minute, I find that she's now dating some other kid and that they've just started going out. I didn't care that I was being harrassed by other kids at the time. When I found out about it, my heart literally sank. I was just too saddened to think or worry about anything else. This entire tragedy (she's single one day, runs away from me the next minute, and finds another kid a matter of weeks later) reoccured. It was a painful reoccurance. I felt like I've failed and that I let myself down. It was a terrible thought that just wouldn't seem to go away. Going on to High School during my Sophomore year. Nothing terrible or tragic happened love-wise during my Freshman year. Infact, that was the year which I've began to develop feelings for this one girl, and it carried over into summer where I would think about her every day when I was by myself, and soon into the following school year. Unfortunately, I had to keep that thought stored up inside of me for some time, like an entire semester's time persay. Yes, that's right. I never got the chance to see her. Ever, save for a select few times where I would see her for brief moments in the halls and whatnot. I truly had feelings for her, yet I was never able to say "hi" or anything. I had to keep imagining our being together, and never actually getting a chance to hopefully make those thoughts become a reality. Then the second semester rolled around and I began to see her more, namely at lunch. That's when I got to let her know how I truly feel about her. I even managed to get her attention doing it, like she's beginning to look into my eyes and start to share similar feelings with me, or at least, certain feelings strayed not far from that. I literally began to feel the momentum swinging in my direction. I felt like the cold streak was over... but boy was I wrong. It wasn't over. Infact, the very next day I was blessed with the unfortunate truth: that she had her eye on somebody else and that he felt the same way about her. The next week, they begin dating and I go into yet another crushed phase of total heart break and distrust in myself to succeed later on. Now, I could continue to type away the lengthy details regarding this, but I'll just sum it up by saying that I was in the middle of talking to her at lunch periodically, setting my shyness aside and opening up to her whenever I had the chance to... but then someone-someone I knew-took her away from me. In the end, I was left with nothing but broken dreams and a shattered heart, and felt like I was much too in the downlow to pick up the pieces. I felt like I was done (with loving) there for sure, knowing I had the one person who I really cared about and longed for... taken from me. Does it end there? Ooooohh no. It doesn't. I later was challenged into going for somebody who I again was told she had feelings for me, but she never budged when I would open up to her. She would deny it, sitting in one place and ignoring me as if she never actually cared. Alas, the cold streak continues... And now more recently, I get into yet another one of those phases with somebody else, where I spend one short period of time talking to this other girl, but eventually the news struck that she just started dating somebody else. I knew that from there, when I found out she had a boyfriend, that my luck had worn thin. That was the exclamation point. I knew that, from there, my chances of getting together with her were very slim. No matter how hard I tried, I knew it wouldn't be the same playing field as the one before she met this one guy. I merely try, through immense shyness and an inability to communicate and all, but in the end, I'm only told what I knew would ensue by the end of it all: that I was only being an annoyance to her by trying to be nice and everything. I was told right to my face by my Dad (who I don't want getting into my personal life AT ALL BTW, or my Mom for that matter. If I had my way, I would keep them both out of this and actually keep my personal life... well, personal), who I knew was only going to further deviate my chances of living a successful love life the way he handles these personal subjects, always telling me what I don't want to hear. That's him in a nutshell. And because of it, I felt depressed and lonely yet again about this. I felt my confidence sink to an all new low, never rising back up again. I felt like I was done, like I was worthless. I felt the pain swell up inside of me, never seeming to go away. I knew I was scared. For life. Because of this, I felt like I wouldn't love again, and at this very day, I'm still undecided of this. I don't know if I should go back to being the same old teenage reject that I always look at myself as with all these unsuccessful stabs at other girls. This, for me, is just too much to handle. Got any similar stories that you could only wish you could tell, maybe rinse off a few tears here and there? I knew that invariably I would find myself saying this, because my love life, as I know it, hasn't been treating me well. At all. I honestly don't know if I can go back to feeling all the pain in knowing that I failed at ever being successful or fortunate. I don't know how much more my deeply-wounded heart can take... |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| Actually, what I find funny is that Boston fans act like they've suffered worse than any other sports town or team yet their Red Sox won their first World Series in 82 or so years THE SAME YEAR that the Patriots won their 2nd straight Super Bowl, and 3rd in 4 years, so they haven't suffered nearly as bad as they say they have. If anything, they've probably suffered the LEAST out of all teams/towns. Boston, for the most part, has been a winning sports town for some time. I could name numerous cities which haven't had as much success in terms of professional sports. I don't care if Denver got lucky that game, at least they'll get to see what it's like to finally lose a damn ball game (I'm sure every other NFL team feels their pain).
Thus, even taking away that shoddy 50+ defensive pass interfierence call, the Pats still would've been down and lost 7. |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| Hey,
I just purchased QuickTime Pro to try and import my home/DVD movies onto my vid iPod, but I can't export them as transferable files to sync on iTunes (as in, export the said movies onto my iPod via iTunes), nor can I get them to play on QuickTime Pro (GRR! I WANT MY MONEY BACK  ...unless someone can point it out for me). I tried going to Open>Open File and couldn't find the movie file on my HD like it tells you to. Is there ANY way to export my home movies onto my vid iPod (I use XP, perhaps that has anything to do with it)? Nothing seems to be working, and I am very confused as to what I should do. |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| I guess it just might be that time again (catch my drift?).
As of lately I've been enduring some very harsh times of depression over this subject. Yes I realize that I've fallen way short in the past in such attempts, but I also realize that this year is my senior year, and thus, is my last chance to redeem myself, or be forever faced with this ongoing pain, and as such, I've decided I might give this "love" thing one last shot. So lately I've been pondering about certain girls and there was this one (I'm not going to give out any names) who caught my eye, and over the summer we've had several AIM conversations and I've even managed to catch her cell phone number (that I ironically haven't called yet), but last week when I caught her in the halls on our way to 4th period I stopped to say "hi" and one of her other friends-a guy-tried to tell me off and refused to let me speak with her. I later said something I already said twice to her (repetition, in other words) and literally felt embarrassed, but that was because this said guy was trying to suck up all the glory from me and as such, I didn't know what to say to her (I was basically tongue-tied). The very next day, however, she walks by my lunch table and smiles at me and says "hi", so I guess that means I'm still on her good side, which made me breathe a sigh of relief. Today though, after lunch, I saw her walking down the halls to 3rd period with some guy I've never seen or heard of her talk to before and thought that they might've "gotten in touch" with eachother, so to speak, which made me feel very nervous... however, on her MySpace, she says she's single and hasn't really talked about him all that much on her friend's MSs, just something about somebody calling this said person, that's it, so there's still legitimate reason to believe that she's still available (if they were really going out, you'd think that she would've dared to "elaborate" a bit more on that, if you know what I mean). The thing about her is, though, that she hasn't had a huge history of b/f's in the past (she's had 1 or 2 that I know of, that's it), which might be to my advantage, which is part of the reason why I've fallen for her (the window of opportunity). Yes I'm well aware of the last times I've ever even so as much as attempted to get a g/f, but I'm also aware of my mistakes, and I will not make the same mistakes over again this time. I will not directly tell her how I feel about her or ask her out (maybe on a date or something, but not a simple "will you go out with me?" as a way of saying "will you be my girlfriend"?), but I will somehow, ask her (or somebody close to her, and for that, I know where a couple of her closest friends sit at lunch, so I can ask them anytime) and find out the truth. If they're really not dating and just friends, then I'll be breathing a(nother) sign of relief, if they are, then so be it, but I honestly believe in my mind that they're just friends and nothing else. Yes I'm a little bit worried, but then again I have a tendency to worry a bit too much about things I feel insecure about, so it might be A-okay here... damn I sure hope it is. (edited by xXxHeadhunterxXx on 09-05-06 08:28 PM) |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| I have numerous times (I believe I've stressed this to death already), the first time was just a simple "no" (after much running away from me as I tried to ask her THE question), the second time, was a sincere "no, sorry" response. That's it... but I still felt the sad displeasure on missing out on both of them for their responses, even though they both could've taken it to a whole other level. | |||
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| Forgive me if I sound whiny or over-emotional here, and I think I know what you might have to say, but please give me the benefit of the doubt here. exp For reasons noted various times on this and the old Acmlm board, I feel like my life is reaching a steady decline. Worse even than that, a living doomsday. I've been enduring some very hard, emotional times as of late, with sadness and depression, over a simple subject that just continues to get the better of me. It's like I fail once at it, and just as soon as I decide that I want to give it another shot, viola, it gets me again, and I really don't know why... is it bad luck? Is it a half-assed superstition? Am I somehow not supposed to have what I want, what I at times cry myself to sleep over? It's like, every single time I've felt feelings for someone... invariably they are soon gone right before my very eyes, sometimes before I even get the chance to act, and sadly, the latest roundtrip falls into the latter category. Okay, so I believed I've already made myself clear over my past failures, but this one literally irks me the most, as well as further proves my theory that, no matter who I go for, no matter what either of us have been through, no matter what I do, that I'm always gonna end on the short end of the stick. I guess, what I'm getting at, is that, recently I've begun developing feelings for a special someone out there, someone who hasn't had a huge history of b/fs in the past (which might've actually worked to my advantage... well not this time, and here's why), someone who meets my criteria, someone I've been friends with and had various AIM conversations with... well lately at lunch I couldn't help but notice how she was always talking to some guy during and after lunch whom I never seen her chat to before and how she never sits with her so-called "best friend" who, ironically enough, sits somewhere right near me at lunch. At first I thought they were just good friends, nothing more, nothing less... but it turns out (to my dismay) that they are more than that, it turns out that I've once again fallen on the short end of the stick. It just so happens that what I didn't want to believe as fact is (once again) true after all, they ARE dating, and it happened before I ever even got the chance to talk to her myself (in PERSON that is). I've once again failed on my part, only this time, I won't have the luxury of having someone who knows I cared feel sympathy for me, for I've never told her or anyone just how I feel (or FELT) about her; yes I've been very secretive about this, as I just didn't know who to tell, who to trust (if such a person even existed), but it turns out that none of that even matters. I'm now officially 0-for-5 (at LEAST, that is), and it's now worsened my already inpenitrably deep sadness over this subject. Yes in time I may get over it, but until I do it's gonna feel that much more crucial inside. Yes I am happy towards this girl, but I am also quite disappointed in myself and over my failures all at the same time. It's not to say that I don't have any more options left, there's 2 more that I have in mind, one of which I've already tried in the past and failed (who IS this new girl's "best friend"), but that was 2 years ago. Maybe things will be better this time around... the thing about THAT, though, is that there's some guy who claims she's already his and even insists that I don't EVER talk to her (yes, he said it to me, in those exact words), which actually hurt my feelings, even if it was a joke (which it might have been; I've known this guy since Middle School, and let me just say this: he loves to play these "mind games" with me). I've already been through way too much to be straight-up told that to my face... but will I move on and try somebody else (even her again, if I have to)? It seems I may not have an option. No, I haven't given up yet, but I have taken yet another big bump along the way. You all know what I'm talking about. |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| But don't you see? The only time I was EVER able to get a hold of her was through AIM, and she knows and trusts that it really was me IMing her but that's beside the point. All the other times I could at least say that I tried, whereas this time around it happened right before I even had the chance to act (in PERSON that is, like I said). It's not that I didn't waste an opportunity, if it were there, I would've cashed in on it the first chance I got, but it wasn't. There was simply nothing I could've done about it whatsoever.
Anyways I'm starting to feel better now... but that might be because I'm trying to take away my pain, as in, stop liking her altogether (or in other words, just flat out get over her). I don't know if it's unusual for guys to all of a sudden stop liking girls when they find out they're dating, but this is the only way I might ever feel better (and I "stopped" liking all the other girls I've failed to get in the past for this same exact reason). Infact, when you find out that a girl you like is currently dating someone else and feel down because of it, that's pretty much your only option left, that or continue to look at her in the same way but further the ongoing pain (until she breaks up with said guy over time, which that won't be happening anytime soon, not at this day and age). I just find it downright impossible to continue to have feelings for someone you know you won't have a chance with, or neglects you for somebody else altogether, but like I said, I'm feeling a lot better now, and I haven't given up yet. I just desperately needed to get that off my chest. Otherwise I would've been completely force-fed with these emotions (for the day at least), which is something I refuse to subject myself to, ever, is all. (edited by xXxHeadhunterxXx on 09-08-06 04:53 PM) |
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xXxHeadhunterxXx Goomba Since: 11-26-05 Last post: 6301 days Last view: 6294 days |
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| That's exactly the type of position I am in. I still am and will continue to be friends with her, but at the same time I won't "give in" to her (so to speak). If there's another chance somewhere down the line I may cash in on it, but until then it won't be anything too serious. |
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