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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22  Posts: 142/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| I wasn't going to post this because I'm not active here anymore, so I don't realy think anyone would really care about it. I'm not going to be surprised if this gets no replies at all. I'm just feeling miserable and completely broken hearted, and I need something, or someone, to help me get by. I'd go to a friend and save you all the trouble of wasting time on me, but the only friend I have is the one that broke me and right now, I don't know how to talk to here. But anyway.. let me explain.. This started over a year ago, back near the end of January or so. I had recently joined at a message board and I started talking to someone. We became friends and such, and soon after, I found myself falling in love. I didn't bother saying anything about until about five months after I had realized what I was feeling. A couple of weeks after I told her, she said she loved me too, and we started going out. That was on November 11th. Up until now, everything was great. We loved each other, we were happy, and everything seemed okay. Yeah, the long distance part hurt, but we had plans to meet this summer and I was going to go back with her when she left and live with her. So yeah, everything seemed okay.. and I thought it would last for a while yet.. Last weekend, on Saturday, we were talking like everything was normal (it was actually the day after her birthday..). Then she starts talking about stuff like how she isn't sure if she loves me or not anymore.. and how she's getting bored with how our relationship is. This really scared the hell out of me and I could already start to feel my heart breaking. I didn't sleep at all that night. I just lay there staring into the darkness. Next day she tells me she wants to take a break and she wants to be alone... so we "take a break".. We still try to talk, but I find it really hard to. She tries to talk to me normally, but I can't do it. I'm feeling completely miserable and crushed. I don't feel like eating, I can't sleep, I get all confused with everything.. That's how I've been feeling since then (there's more about it in my journal. So if you really care, you can read it. Link is in my profile). Now, last night.. she said that she would tell me today if she loved me or not. I asked her if I would hear what I wanted to hear, and she said I probably wouldn't.. I spent the next half an hour just staring at my computer screen. I can't describe what I was feeling.. knowing that she didn't love me, we wouldn't get back together, and we wouldn't ever meet now. I didn't say anything to her after that other then "i'm going to bed". So I went to bed. It only started to really hurt when I got in bed. I broke out in tears, and I could hardly breathe. This went on for a few hours before I started to calm down a bit. I couldn't fall asleep though. I don't know what to do.. She said a few days ago that she still wants to be friends. I don't understand how I'm supposed to be her friend though. She just completely shattered my heart and devastated me. It's not like I can sit here and talk to her normally and act like a friend now. i don't know how to do it.. I don't want to lose her, but I'm afraid it's going to happen. I'll probably end up pushing her away from me or something.. I think that's pretty much it. I had more stuff to say, but I've forgotten. Sorry for wasting anyones time, and thank you to anyone that does bother reading this and replying and that cares at all. Except if you're going to reply with something like "it's just an online thing. just get over it and move on" or "you're still young, you'll meet other people and fall in love again" or whatever.. Thats not stuff I want to be hearing, so please don't post it. |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 143/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| Hmm, yeah.. I talked to her again last night and she says that she wants to get back together, but not yet. She still wants to be alone and she's going to be busy for the next few weeks so we won't have time to talk or anything, so. I'm not sure about it though. Yeah, I'd like to get back together with her and hopefully things will work out until we meet and such, but she's unsure of her feelings towards me. She says there is definitely something there, but she doesn't know how strong the feeling is or what to call it. So.. I don't know. She has my mind full of doubt now about everything, and if we do get back together, things may just end up this way again. I probably will get back together, because I know it's hard to be friends with someone after something like this. I don't want to lose her, and if we are trying to get by as just friends, I'm afraid I will. Maybe it could work as just friends though.. I don't know. The way I see it, I don't think it would, because of how I am. I really don't know what to think anymore. I'm confused about the entire situation. I'm trying to think things out and figure out where I should go from here, but my head is clouded and I really feel lost. |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 144/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| Yeah, it's a great anime. I've seen the first 88 episodes, and read the manga up to chapter 219 (I think). The fights that Jarukoth mentioned are probably the best ones, though I don't think the Sasuke vs Gaara fight was all that great. I want to see some of the fights in the manga in the anime. They should be good animated, once the series catches up to where the manga is at now. |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 145/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| We have a lot here, like we always do. I have a few bites already. It's really annoying, but they're not the worst thing in the world. Those little black flies annoy me more. They're everywhere here  |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 146/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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Originally posted by Hiryuu I remember that thing, and yeah, it was a bicth to beat. I can't dodge for crap, so when he was breaking into pieces and sending them over to the other side of the screen, I always got hit a few times. Anything that comes out of a pit, or down from the sky, is annoying too  |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 147/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| It's definitely not what it used to be anymore, but I don't think it's dying. There are enough people out there to buy the games to keep the series going, so I don't think it'll die out anytime soon. If one of the games sucks, I think the FF fans will still buy the next one that comes out, because it's supposed to be a completely different game and it may not suck like the last. The recent games (recent being FFVII and above) aren't that great in my opinion. I'm hoping FFXII will be a lot better than most of the recent ones. If it sucks, I'll just look forward to FFXIII and so on. |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 149/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| Ice cream makes me sick. I'm slightly lactose intolerant or something, so I don't know why everyone likes it so much anyway. It's not that great. |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 150/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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We had some crappy fireworks here. My town is only a small hick town, so it's not like we can afford to have anything big. I didn't go. I had to be at other places  Happy Canada Day, even though it's July 2nd here now  |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 151/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| I started with Dragonball. My brothers and I would watch it whenever it came on. Can't remember how long ago that was or anything. Then I started watching Dragonball Z, Pokemon, Digimon and that stuff a few years later. When I got a computer and broadband internet, I downloaded a bunch more of stuff. That's about it. | |||
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 152/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| It wasn't that bad. True that Final Fantasy Tactics is better and a lot of the things in the game are annoying, but it was still kind of fun playing through it. Not a game I'd play through more than once though, so meh. | |||
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 153/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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Originally posted by Ranko Word. Though I used to have a pink GBA. I ended up selling it for $10 or so. |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 154/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| Mine's the name of a character in FF Tactics. I liked the name so I used it. I'm not creative enough to come up with my own name |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 155/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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Originally posted by Legion It does. What does "Champloo" mean anyway? I've asked people that watch it, and none of them seem to know.. And yeah, it does kick some ass. I'm impatiently waiting for episode eight to be up for download now. Anyone know how many episodes it will run for? |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 156/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| My brother used to have some Axe. It stunk like shit. I hated it. I don't use any cologne or anything. I don't know how people can either. It's so.. bleh..  |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 157/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| I'm using Mozilla Firefox. My Internet Explorer decided to stop working a few weeks ago, so I can't use that anymore. Every time I attempt to open it, I get some error and it closes. Happens every time. No problems with Firefox, except I can't seem to change my theme or install any extensions But thats alright, I suppose. |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 158/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| This place, Time Limit, and Tuvai Bulletin Board (though I'm not sure if you can count TBB seeming how it's dead and such ). I'm not active on any board, I just lurk around. I'd put links up but I don't want to. zzz. |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 159/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| Haha... Not everyone is completely addicted like that. Some people just like or whatever else, like Yoghurt Duck said, there are different reasons. When I do drugs it's because I like it, not because I'm addicted or anything. I could probably stop doing it whenever I feel like it (not that I do it too often to begin with). Eh. |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 160/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| From one place that I can't remember the name of. People were complaining to the staff about me being annoying or something, so the staff decided to ban me. I'm not sure how I was being annoying... |
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 161/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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| Long. I can't stand having short hair and I think mine looks better when it's longer, so I just grow it out. It gets annoying sometimes and everyone is constantly telling me to cut it, but I don't really mind that since I like it this way. | |||
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Izlude Octoballoon Level: 22 Posts: 162/171 EXP: 54655 For next: 3695 Since: 03-15-04 From: Canada Since last post: 421 days Last activity: 14 days |
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I've never actually seen anyone throw anything out their car window before. I know it happens and all that, but it's probably not so common around here. I guess the people here are a bit more sensible? Originally posted by Toxic Ah, this happens a lot though and I'll never understand people who do it. It's mostly just teenagers that just got their license that are doing it (here anyway) |
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