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witeasprinwow                   Since: 12-29-05 Last post: 6406 days Last view: 6406 days |
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| “From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
For the fictional time-travelling vehicle, see time travel A time capsule is a historic cache of goods and/or information, usually intended as a method of communication with people in the future. Time capsules are sometimes created and buried with much hoopla during celebrations such as a World Fair, cornerstone laying for a building or other event. They can also be unintended caches such as at Pompeii. The phrase "time capsule" has been in use since about 1937, but the idea is as old as the earliest human civilizations in Mesopotamia. They can generally be classified into four types. Intentional and unintentional (such as Pompeii), and those scheduled for retrieval on a certain date (often 10, 100, or 1,000 years later), and those not.“ --- I came to this board over five years ago, a 15-year old teenager who was still getting used to high school. I saw in-jokes and a fun, happy community. I signed up. I was in posting sprees. I was in ACS. I was in Big Threads about posting something about the person before you 30 posts a day. I got PMs from Colin telling me to lay off the stimulants. I didn’t fucking “get it.” I was about as self-aware as a slug. The thought of monitoring myself as a person was a foreign concept to me. Why did I do things? “Who cares?” I was oblivious to my own shortcomings, and because of this I had the delusional idea that I had none of them. Why do I feel the need to post "OH NOES" 300 times in the hidden forum? Why the fuck not? Everyone else is doing it. --- I used to see bits and pieces of what other, generally respected people did and just emulate it. I was an abstract of different things I had seen. I didn’t measure myself by the value of my own thoughts and feelings, but instead by the results my actions got from other people; and what better way to learn what actions work but to emulate those who have proven successful to the point of bland monotony? It’s a morbid, disturbing theory, but it’s put to use in the real world all the time. That doesn’t work. That never works. You can fake it for a while, but in the long run, if it isn’t real, then it won’t work. There’s not just a moral or spiritual value to being yourself, but practical value, too. Nothing cuts through bullshit better than truth. I could fake what I think, and get lots of people to like me. I don’t do it because it’s pointless in the end. It achieves nothing for either party. If you meet me today, I tell you what I think, and you have to make your own decisions about it’s validity. If it upsets you, so be it. I’d rather my interactions with people be meaningful, even if they are negative more often. --- My hard drive is always fucking full to the brim. I download something and then forget to delete it, and the files sit there eating up a few gigs a piece. I also have the organizational skills of an ADD riddled 3-year old, which means that every time I run out of space I have to manually browse through all the folders in my computer until I find stuff to delete. This happened again, a few weeks ago. In my search to purge my hard drive, I decided to poke around in a seldom-used folder. I found a lot of saved AIM conversations in there. Old ones. We’re talking 2, 3, even 4 years old. It was a relic from my past. I was preserved perfectly, completely unadulterated by the fuzziness of memory. I was forced to see chunks of how I used to be just as they were. I was awful. I was a god damn fucking douchebag. I had no social skills. I made awkward jokes. I am funnier, more sociable, and overall more charismatic on a bad day today than I was at my best back then. Sometimes I felt sick as I read them and thought about how, at one point in time, I must have thought this was hilarious. There was one of a girl obviously trying her damnedest to flirt with me over AIM, and the best I could muster was a fluttered, overly modest response that completely dodged the issue. I was terrible. I went over each one of them, about 12 in total, and forced myself to read them in totality. I saw myself progress over time. I was still socially retarded two years ago, but not nearly as bad as I was four years ago. This is the thought that made me realize: What if I look back in two years on what I’m doing now, and realize that I was an idiot? What if I’m acting embarrassingly retarded right now? This fear is totally inescapable. First off, I’ve been far from self-conscious about my behavior, so I don’t have the proper information to evaluate my behavior and make a decision. Furthermore, even if I was that self-conscious, I wouldn’t be able to evaluate myself properly. I didn’t think poorly of myself four years ago, when I was more of an ass, so why would I think any worse of myself now? And even if I did know how I fared, I wouldn’t have the tools necessary to do it until too late! I would be under its power, posting "OH NOES" 300 times in the hidden forum, totally oblivious to the thought that sometime down the road I might look back and be appalled at my actions. This is something that I’ve come to accept to be an endless cycle. It’s a never-ending purgatory. Every two years or so I get better as a person, but better than before is still not necessarily good. Every two years I will shed some of my stupider behaviors, but that just forces other ones to the bottom of the list. I left the files there. Some day, two years later, I’ll come across them again, and be reminded of this. -- I came to this board over five years ago, a retarded 15-year old teenager who was still getting used to high school. Here I am five years after, a slightly less retarded 21-year old adult who is well into college. This board is something of a time capsule for me. Although it doesn’t shove my face into my past the same way the AIM conversations do (Thanks for losing all the posts assholes), it is a symbol for what I know I used to be, and what I have become since then. Back when I first joined this place, I didn’t fucking “get it.” Today, I can proudly say I “get it.” It has been a long trial and error process. I have fucked up on the way. A LOT. I have done a lot of things I wish I could take back, and a lot of things that I wish I could go back in time for and punch myself in the face for. Yet, at the same time, if I could do it all over again, I think I’d do it the same way. You see, without my fuck-ups, I am nothing. Without being an ass again and again and again, I never learn what makes an ass, and how not to be an ass. Sure, if I went back in time I could change all my actions, but then today I would have nothing to show for myself. I would have made no progress. I would still be as naïve as I was back then. So thank you, Acmlm’s Board. Thank you for showing me what it’s like to be a douchebag. I will seriously, honestly, never forget it. -- I can see this thread going two ways: 1. Talk about the little story I just shared with you (Feel free to ask questions), or 2. Share your own growing-up stories. What made you stop, turn around, and go "God DAMN I have come far"? (edited by witeasprinwow on 05-27-06 01:41 PM) |
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Thexare Metal battleaxe Off to better places  Since: 11-18-05 Last post: 6297 days Last view: 6296 days |
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| You may find this thread useful. It's got links to archives of past incarnations of the board.
And yeah, I was pretty stupid a few years back too. We all were. I'd rather not share my experiences though, it's something I try to keep as far behind me as possible.  |
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C:/xkas bio.asm Compiled ASM code   Since: 11-17-05 Last post: 6297 days Last view: 6296 days |
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| I renember when I joined(other guy:this isn't even a year ago me:shut up) I was the generic smw hacking n00b that ask question answered in the sticky and post crappy hack, at least now I finally got over my n00bness to do something good coughBioworldcough. but there is still a part of me who is a total n00b(as you can see here) Link got a Dark side and I got a n00b side *sigh* (edited by Bio on 05-28-06 11:42 PM) (edited by Bio on 05-28-06 11:44 PM) |
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witeasprinwow Since: 12-29-05 Last post: 6406 days Last view: 6406 days |
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Originally posted by Thexare Oh. WOW. Thanks for showing me that Originally posted by witeasprinwow That was my first post. Maybe I wouldn't change anything significant if I went back in time... But I would definately have to punch myself in the face. Just because of sheer principle. |
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MathOnNapkins  1100  In SPC700 HELL Since: 11-18-05 Last post: 6297 days Last view: 6296 days |
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wite where is your old avatar? 
It was like... the best one ever. |
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witeasprinwow Since: 12-29-05 Last post: 6406 days Last view: 6406 days |
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Originally posted by MathOnNapkins I just did a search on my computer. Nothing. I'm pretty sure it got deleted somehow. Unless it's stored in some internet archive somewhere, it's gone for good. |
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Sukasa Birdo Not quite as active as before. Xkeeper supporter Xk > ||bass I IP Banned myself! Twice!  Since: 11-17-05 From: Somewhere over there Last post: 6297 days Last view: 6296 days |
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| Huh... Crazy, when you look back on yourself like that, isn't it?
That reminds me of the drastic differences looking back only a little bit for me in real life... Man I've changed... wite, do you ever notice that time really seems t sometimes fly past without you ever noticing for the longest time? |
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witeasprinwow Since: 12-29-05 Last post: 6406 days Last view: 6406 days |
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Originally posted by Sukasa + These last few months have been an exercise in drawn-out monotony for me, but I've felt like that in the past. Sometimes I wonder how I manage to accomplish so little in so much time. College is really a time sink; Between classes and having a social life, I don't have much time to work on projects. My only real hobby anymore is guitar. (I'm trying to get into the swing of writing too, as you can see.) Some of my classes teach interesting subjects, but at the end of the day I can't say that I've really learned anything that I could apply in the real world yet. To contrast that, I have some friends that are training for the Navy. So what if I learned all about modern american history or ancient rhetoric? He learned how to kill a man with his bare hands by snapping his neck, and given his strength I don't doubt that he could do it to me twice over. What the fuck have I learned that holds a candle to that? (edited for spelling) (edited by witeasprinwow on 05-30-06 02:18 AM) |
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mattp Red Paratroopa Since: 03-04-06 Last post: 6561 days Last view: 6561 days |
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| I remember you
You definitely have matured a lot. |
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Valcion Knuckle Joe too much high power man  Since: 11-17-05 Last post: 6296 days Last view: 6296 days |
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| Hey wite~
and damn... you have changed a lot. (edited by Valcion on 06-01-06 05:20 PM) |
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HyperHacker Star Mario Finally being paid to code in VB! If only I still enjoyed that. <_< Wii #7182 6487 4198 1828 Since: 11-18-05 From: Canada, w00t! My computer's specs, if anyone gives a damn. STOP TRUNCATING THIS >8^( Last post: 6297 days Last view: 6297 days |
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| Whenever I look through old things I wrote in 2003 I laugh at how stupid they sound. |
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witeasprinwow Since: 12-29-05 Last post: 6406 days Last view: 6406 days |
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Originally posted by Valcion Hey Valcion~ Deep inside I'm still the same old dumbass, just a more self-aware dumbass. Originally posted by HyperMackerel This wasn't even the first message board I ever posted at. I'm actually SCARED to think of what I must have been like before I signed up here. |
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Deleted User Banned    Since: 05-08-06 Last post: None Last view: 6297 days |
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| i get that thought too, thought of going back in time and not necessarily changing anything, just punching myself in the face
--- my icq logs from 2000-2001: me: FUCK! I ONLY LVLED ONE LVL TODAY IN FALDON! I'M GONNA GO OVERDRIVE! me: ha, my dad doesn't give a shit about the phone call, he wasn't home and I TOLD HIM what to write to mr. skipper in my planner...HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA me: KICKASS! I'M AN EXPERT SORCERER IN FALDON! I JUSTNOTICED! KICKAAAASSSSS!!!!! --- thumbs up |
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Valcion Knuckle Joe too much high power man Since: 11-17-05 Last post: 6296 days Last view: 6296 days |
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| and when i look back to how i sounded when i first started going to this board... i sorta wanna punch myself. Maybe not because how i acted and the things i did eventually lead to me being happy today.
hell, even how i acted a year ago was pretty bad. Not as bad, yeah. but i look at how negative i was and i can't believe i thought thinking like that was going to get me anywhere... Thankfully someone helped me realize how negative i was and awakened a hot-blooeded spirit inside me. |
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max Blipper  i'm a pixie !!! Since: 11-17-05 Last post: 6558 days Last view: 6296 days |
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| i was such acock back then. capital letters, prpoer grammar and spoelling
fuck that shit |
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witeasprinwow Since: 12-29-05 Last post: 6406 days Last view: 6406 days |
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Originally posted by max This man is on the fast road to success. I suggest we all emulate him as closely as possible. Honestly, I laughed more at that than I probably should have. |
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