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Sabishii Red Paragoomba                   Since: 02-26-06 From: Georgia Last post: 6462 days Last view: 6462 days |
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| Did anyone else suffer from what feels like chronic and irrational fear of failure in high school?
I've gotten over fear of failing tests and what have you, AP is a wonderful tool for kicking your ass and the rebuilding it. I mean more like failure at life. Let me give those of you who don't know you personally a look at my history here: I live in a 21 year old trailer, which is falling apart faster than it can be fixed, my parents declared bankruptcy when I was 11ish from 70k in debt, my father killed himself, both my parents did drugs and my mother never went to college. I'm so scared I'll wind up like my mother. I love the woman to death and I respect her for all she's done and all she's given me, but I am terrified of ending up in her shoes. I have done so much to prevent myself from falling and having to live in this hole while I still can for free. I'm always done my best in school, I take difficult classes, I've learned to manage money and organize like no one's business, and I work incessantly, to the point of exhaustion to make better of myself. It takes money to make money, so I might as well make use of the tax money being spent on my lovely little public school, neh? Despite my AP teachers being confident that I'll get a 4 or 5 on the exam, despite decent grades on the PSATs and a natural curiosity, I'm still petrified. I take the SAT in April, three AP exams in May and the ACT in June. I'm afraid I'll do horribly on all of them and never get into college or that I'll get in but not be able to pay for it and fall in debt. I woke up physically crying a week or so ago because I had a dream that no college would take me, and it's really spurred my pessimism up again. I've gotten back into an old fear of thinking every moment counts and that every stroke of a pencil or pen pushes me further towards or away from college. I don't expect anyone else to be as psychotic and in need of tranquilizers as I am, but has anyone else ever been this freaked out and generally terrified of messing up? I have such a hard time forgiving myself for mistakes and it can't be healthy or efficient to get as panicked or upset as I do. This isn't helped at all by the recent end of a nearly nine month relationship, which is coming back to haunt me in ways I might vent about on a different day, because my current ex is who I used to confide so much in. This leaves me feeling excessively scared and psychotic and like I have no where to turn. Right, rant over before it gets too emo. Did anyone else/can anyone else relate or give me some advice on how to calm down some? |
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Danielle     6730 Administratorrrr HELLO THERE    Since: 11-17-05 From: California Rate me ^_^ Last post: 6296 days Last view: 6295 days |
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I do have irrational fears, but they don't really involve failing in school. And from what you say, you are a smart cookie and have nothing to really worry about. Even if you don't get into some presitigous school, there are hundreds upon hundreds of state colleges out there, and if you apply to the right ones, you'll get in. AP classes are an advantage to begin with. Doing well on the PSAT is a good sign. Just do your best to relax and have some confidence in your future. Keep working hard, good things will happen.  |
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Tarale 2710 Affected by 'Princess Bitch-Face Syndrome' ++++!! Persona non grata Since: 11-17-05 From: Adelaide, Australia Last post: 6295 days Last view: 6295 days |
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| I think everybody has irrational fear from time to time, based on lots of different things.
I too have a fear of failing at life; or at least that I'm being overcome by it all. I've had my own fairly rough time growing up, and am still going through a lot of bad stuff, and I guess I have a bunch of irrational fears that I'll "fail" Failure to me of course means a lot of different things. I might "fail" to find love, settle down and raise a family. I might "fail" to simply pay bills on time or overcome my current debt problems. I might "fail" as a careerwoman. I might "fail" as a person and a friend. There are a gazillion ways I can "fail" and I'm pretty worried about a lot of them. The best thing I find for it is to keep yourself busy. There are lots of things that need to be done generally, even if it's little things like remembering to mail an important letter and stuff. It helps me feel busy, it helps me feel like I'm working towards not failing. I dunno if it'd work for you, but work and other distractions certainly work for me. Mostly.  |
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Cruel Justice I have better things to do. Since: 11-18-05 From: At my house! Last post: 6296 days Last view: 6295 days |
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| I think you just need to chill out and find something that you enjoy doing and get rewarded for your efforts. Senior year is extremely tough, alot of weight on your shoulders. Time will fly though, just keep your chin up and finish your work, take a break, then get back on the job.
High School Graduation kinda seems like a waterfall. The stress builds up as you get closer to the edge. You pull hard and hope that you make it. After you get through the rough and tumble, everything is smoooth. |
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mattp Red Paratroopa Since: 03-04-06 Last post: 6560 days Last view: 6560 days |
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| You're one of the smartest people I know. You'll do great. | |||
C`aos Porcupo  Since: 03-02-06 From: AB, Canada Last post: 6296 days Last view: 6296 days |
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Originally posted by Sabishii I can attest to this somewhat. I did fairly well in high school, and my first year of college went off without a hitch. As I got further ahead though, I began to do more and more poorly in computer science (my major) and I would possibly have to find a new niche. This was what I always wanted to do, and what bothered me about having to drop it wasn't that fact, but rather what I would pick up to fill that void. I grew paranoid of my own work. I'd study abnormal amounts of time, and check, double-check, triple-check what I did for mistakes - and still have dumb accidents anyways. I had a great deal of trouble sleeping some nights thinking about what the next assignment or test would bring, what courses I'd select next term, etc. I had to find something else I was "good at", and fast. I still get decent marks in all my courses, but I don't have an actual direction in which I'm going, and it's always a lingering concern. The kicker is that my parents are helping me a great deal with my finances, and have been overly supportive of any directions that I've chosen to take my studies in. It stresses me a great deal knowing that they would have to spend increasing amounts of money to give me a wider grace period to fix my own problems. That is my fear of "failure". On the other hand, I know that if I'm at least good at SOME subject I take, I have a potential path that I can take. |
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