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Sonicandfails   910                    Since: 11-17-05 From: Mass Last post: 6279 days Last view: 6279 days |
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| This has been happening alot to me lately. I've been getting this whole "What am I doing with my life" thing and then it is quickly followed by "Shit, I'm going to die one day.".
It really is upsetting and normally makes me cry. Like right now. I look back and think, "I could have spent (insert time here) doing something else." and it keeps hitting me hard. It mostly happens in World of Warcaft, because I am truly wasting my life away with it, but it's too damn fun. Is there any way to get it out of my mind when it comes up? I have tried thinking about other things but it doesn't help at all. I suppose my big want in life is to do something that will leave an impact on the earth. Something like what Bill Gates did, created Windows, the most used OS in the world. He will be forever remembered...Will I? I want to be. I don't want to die damnit! Life lately has been going by so fast too. I remember when I was young when school vacations would go on forever and months would take years to pass. Now, one minute it's 2006 and the next it's 2007. I don't want to grow up and get old. I don't want to lose my friends and family. I don't want it damnit all!!! I want to do everything in the world...I want to program, I want to travel to other countries, I want to do athletic sports, I want to speak other languages, I want to do anything possible to get the most out of life. But I can't. Why can't we know what happens on the other side...If there is a God, why must he toy with us in this manner! It's terrible... Now I'm just ranting...I need some time to think...I'll be back later... |
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spel werdz rite Since: 11-19-05 Last post: 6280 days Last view: 6279 days |
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Well, you're still young. Most teens stop around your age and ponder the worth of their life. Succesful people do something, failures keep pondering. Now, because you are still a teenager, there really isn't much you can do beyond trying your best in school to become, in your eyes, a success. Now, if you really want to make a difference, the best way to start is just by helping out. Volunteer, lend a dollar to a frind with no lunch, etc. I'm not sure if you may be remembered forever though, of the ~50 billion people who have walked this earth, not many are widely and eternally remembered. But doing as I suggested earlier will still make you important to the select few you've been around. As for how much you play WoW, who cares!? It's your life, you deserve joy and pleasure just as much as anyone else does. If playing Warcraft is something you enjoy doing, then DO IT!! [to an extent of course] Life is a funny thing; don't spend all of it trying to feel important, because then you've never lived, and don't spend all of it fulfilling your minute gratitudes, because you will be forgotten and no one will care. So hitting the fine line between inner and outer peace is an adventure for the soul who searches it. Lastly, don't cry about the thought of dying. While it's sad and true that all of us will one day lose the oppurtunity to see the next tomorrow, it must not hold you back from living today and remembering yesterday.  |
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Silvershield 580  Since: 11-19-05 From: Emerson, New Jersey Last post: 6291 days Last view: 6279 days |
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| You and I are not going to achieve greatness. As spel werdz rite points out, such a small fraction of all people who live and have lived are presently "famous" that it is very unlikely, mathematically speaking, that we will be remembered on such a large scale.
But live a good life. Help people who need it. Lend a hand to a person who is having problems. Step up for someone who is in peril. Do good deeds. Be a kind person. The people that you helped will remember you, even if "the world" does not. But who cares what the world thinks? Many of its people are not worthy of your name, anyway, right? |
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Sonicandfails 910 Since: 11-17-05 From: Mass Last post: 6279 days Last view: 6279 days |
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| You're right. I am still young. And I shouldn't let thoughts of death get in my way! I can't thank you enough, you have no idea how great that just made me feel! It is true, not that many people in the world will be eternally remembered! And yea, I shouldn't spend my life trying to be something important! Oh gosh, I feel so rejuvenated you have no idea. | |||
Chainlink1061 Paratroopa  Since: 02-01-06 From: Salinas, California Last post: 6282 days Last view: 6284 days |
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| That's right. You're 1,000 times better than most people on Earth, and to show that, you should do what's best for you.
If you follow the right path, you will succeed in life. Try your best in school. You may not think it matters at the time, but good grades are definitely keys to a successful life. Quite rarely does someone lead a decent life without a High School or College diploma, and if you would like to lead a good life, school definitely matters in the long run. If you want others to think highly of you, you can start out by helping others and being a good person in general. Be someone who avoids real-life name calling and fighting. Who cares if someone calls you a name, it isn't true, right? For one, if you're a nice person and someone who avoids social arguments and fights, adults are going to respect you more. I know plenty of "gangsta" kids who are pretty much hated by adults because of the way they act, and positive influences are especially greeted and well-liked by teachers and adults. If someone's in the need of help, you should help them, prior to your abilities. Give a helping hand. Every second counts. Yes, and about the World of Warcraft, it's your life, you do what you want. If you feel like playing it, then play it to your heart's content! Life isn't, buddy, so you should do what you want to do, and not care about what others think. You only live one life (as far as any living people know), you should make the most of it. Aside of my pointless ranting that's been already clarified by Spel Werds Rite, I'd like to comment on the speed of your life: My life's the same way. I remember when vacations, years, and months would go by slower than you can imagine. Starting in 2002-2003 for me, life started speeding up. I joined this forum 367 days ago, and it feels like I registered yesterday; I can clearly remember registering. I remember pointless dates that I did pointless stuff on; I remember I got my hair cut on March 17th, 2005. Pointless trivia, but for me, it feels like yesterday. It all goes by so fast now, that it feels like these last 3 years or so were all in the same week. Are you ever bored so much, you feel like you're going to bore yourself to death? If so, when did this start occuring? I'm not sure if this is normal for my 15 year-old self, but on many occasions, I do. I'm bored pretty much all the time, every day, even when I'm doing something entertaining, doesn't matter. My boredom only goes away when I'm at school, and even then, not the whole time. It started happening to me a month or so after I turned 14. If the above questions don't meet the "Yes" criteria, I'm sorry. That's my 2 cents, not sure if it helps or not, or if I'm in the way... |
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SamuraiX Broom Hatter  Since: 11-19-05 Last post: 6279 days Last view: 6280 days |
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| The vast possibilities are life are met with the harsh reality of death. If games leave one bereft of happiness after, just as anything else, why bother regretting it? Does it matter, as long as there was that moment where it felt good? If you want people to think highly of you, then I feel that it is impossible to meet your goal in such a way. Who do people think highly about, but people who don't strive to be thought highly about? At the expense of repetition and cliche, live your life, since there's not much else you can do. | |||
KeiiChi Kun Leever Learn some manners. Password changed to gibberish and IP banned. Since: 01-01-06 From: Sushi Bar Last post: 6292 days Last view: 6292 days |
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| Drink a glass of water. Trust me, it works. | |||
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Metal Man88 Gold axe It appears we have been transported to a time in which everything is on fire! Since: 11-17-05 Last post: 6279 days Last view: 6279 days |
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| Make an action plan. Seriously. Death cannot be controlled, and I highly believe it is not final for any one person. (Mainly because that'd be just too nice. I mean, come on, throughout life horrible things happen and then it's all over? No. Things aren't that nice. Neither is it possible to justify things like recurring wars and traits of past people. Etc. etc. but I can't really override your beliefs. That's your choice.)
Ultimately what matters is that you have a sustainable, enjoyable life, no matter what it is you do, assuming it doesn't require the suffering or harm of hordes of others. Why? In the end, you die, and you won't be around to see people remember you. Who cares what they think? Heck, some of the most famous people are that way because they did their thing and ignored the status quo. Not because they put up signs saying "Remember meeeee." Of course, what is right for me may be wrong for you, so ultimately it is your decision. |
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Ailure Mr. Shine I just want peace...  Since: 11-17-05 From: Sweden Last post: 6279 days Last view: 6279 days |
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| Believe me, what you described is probably my biggest fear in the last 12 years.
Infact, if I ever had problems sleeping or been depressed it was because of me thinking about death. It wasn't until college when other things made me down (stress) but that's another story. 
I don't really have more tips though. It seems that the older I am, the more I seem to accept the fate and just try to live on. :/ |
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Hiryuu Sword Maiden Retired Admin  Since: 11-17-05 From: Nerima District - Tokyo, Japan Last post: 6279 days Last view: 6279 days |
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| Pffehh...been through this stage once or twice.
It basically divies down to two ways of looking at it: You can either look at your life as something that eventually reaches its peak and then, in some cruel twist of fate or joke, decides to erode in a very, very long and exhausting process until you're eaten from the outside in...ooorrr you can just completely negate the fact of what you look like on the outside and uh...live life. It's about as simple as the latter really. Being concerned about stuff that's going to happen about forty or fifty years down the line (for most people) at your age does not concern you. You get faced with that any time soon, worry then and take it up with the afterlife. Sides, I'm more worried about paying my car insurance than biting the big one. (edited by Hiryuu on 02-07-07 04:43 AM) |
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Schweiz oder etwas [12:55] (Dr_Death16); I swear, the word drama needs to be stricken from the dictionary, for I've heard it so many times, it will permanently be imprinted on my brain  Since: 11-17-05 From: Kingston, Rhode Island Last post: 6279 days Last view: 6279 days |
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| Sonic, don't worry about glory or anything like that... Think about this:
I met a traveller from an antique land Who said:—Two vast and trunkless legs of stone Stand in the desert. Near them on the sand, Half sunk, a shatter'd visage lies, whose frown And wrinkled lip and sneer of cold command Tell that its sculptor well those passions read Which yet survive, stamp'd on these lifeless things, The hand that mock'd them and the heart that fed. And on the pedestal these words appear: "My name is Ozymandias, king of kings: Look on my works, ye mighty, and despair!" Nothing beside remains: round the decay Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare, The lone and level sands stretch far away. Even Bill Gates is gonna be forgotten someday. |
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spiroth10 Paratroopa Since: 01-28-06 From: USA Last post: 6279 days Last view: 6279 days |
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| eventually bill gates will become more infamous than famous anyway. Go talk to people at a Linux user group, mailing list, or forum. That and they seem to be causing some nasty political upheavals (problems that could lead to war) with situations like the power plants they recently acquired in China (if that was true at least)...
but lets not go all anti-microsoft, at least not in this thread. (I will point out that I like a good deal of MS products, it's just that the things they lack seem major to me...) anyway, I feel the same way as you about death -- probably a great deal worse actually. Why worse? Because right now, I'm struggling as hard as I can to make my life better in every aspect, and I'm not sure that I can change much alone. But if I look back, I've changed a lot of things in only a matter of weeks/months. For example, the friends I had weren't very good -- quite loyal, but not good friends. I finally found out why they were so unpopular. but that doesn't matter. So I'm trying really hard to make new friends -- looks like I've succeeded here. I sit with new people at lunch, and I think I'm slowly building new friendships -- though right now I have almost no one to hang out with (save a few people once in a while) outside of school. This one is a sore subject with me. One of my former friends (who I really, really hate... always have really) almost got me to knock him out by picking on me for it. He claimed he was better than me because of it, but 99.9% of people hate him. They call him a scumbag, but even people who really are scum don't want to associate with him. He is nothing. what is it? girls. I've absolutely never had a girlfriend -- ever. and I'm a bit older than you (17 in one month). Why does it get me all riled up? well, for one, that wasn't really the only thing that got me mad. he said he was better than me. For two, I have an irrational fear that I will die without ever even having a chance to experience that. There is a great curiosity inside me that I have never been enabled to indulge. Even basic things like kissing seem highly mysterious to me. but I'm trying to change that too. I'm talking to more girls now. not sure if I've made any solid progress, but hey, I'm talking to more girls, and they aren't running away. I call that a +. also, I let my grades drop down to 80s for awhile. Anyone who really knows me could tell you I'd be a shoe in for colleges/universities like MIT, so 80s are low for me. REALLY LOW. There was a math teacher who hated me (and really, honestly couldn't teach, every student in the whole school has already agreed with me on this), and she gave a me a 74 one marking period, but my overall was like an 81. so now I'm doing my homework again, and trying harder in school. My average right now is pretty close to 100%, and all I have to do is keep it there. I skipped today because I am (honestly) sick. Some people say I talk too much, so I'm trying to be more quiet. This may seem like a long rant about myself, and well, it sort of is. But there is some wisdom and experience in there for you too. If your worried about death then your probably not satisfied in something with your life as it is. Your focusing too much on the end when it is just the beginning. Your post shows me a lot about you -- the words you used, and especially the fact that you mentioned you are wasting your life. I think, however, that there are more major problems than World of Warcraft. Is there something else lacking in your life? The only thing you can do is try to change it, and believe me, it will take all the willpower you've got. some people say "Just be yourself" and for a small part, this is true. However there are times that life demands a person to change, and depending on how you were brought up, and how your life has progressed, I believe that adolescence can be a time where major change is required, not in responsibility, but in oneself. Every night I go to bed hoping things will change when I wake, but the difference is that I do something that next day -- even if it's only a small push forward, I'm not falling back. Don't be one of those people who goes into denial. Don't tell yourself your right and everyone else is wrong. Pain is sometimes necessary as a radical push for us to move forward. As I said, I don't think death has anything to do with this -- take it from someone who was in your shoes less than a year ago, and is just stepping out. If you have more serious issues that need change, ones you don't know how to deal with, you can post them anonymously here or search online. However some things in life are dreadfully complex, and can only be discovered firsthand. Things like that can only be discovered through action, and believe me, there will be times you wished you'd done nothing. some recommendations I have are: 1. Hang out with friends more and get off WoWC. Got no real friends? Go out and make some. Just talk to people. Find common ground -- and if you have none, go make some. 2. Join a sports team. Got no talent, no problem! Cross country, track, and wrestling seldom cut people. You probably won't make varsity, but there's always JV. You'll like it more than you think. 3. Flirt/talk with girls... or guys if your into that. It's fun. Even if they don't go out with you, it still helps build confidence, and helps make friends. I guarantee that about 75% of the girls you flirt with will at least be friendly with you. I can't really help you there -- I know to little, but at least try talking to them. 4. Got a weight problem? Too fat? Go on a diet and run a few miles a day. Too skinny? Eat more and go lift weights. these are all things I have learned from experience. I hope they help you. And about being remembered, think of all the people you don't remember. Go to a graveyard. there are trillions of people who weren't remembered. Do you even want to be remembered? People to debate whether you were good or evil after your death? Kids snickering about how dumb they thought you were in history class? the most you can do is wait until your older, get married, and start a family to carry on your name. But even that won't get you personally remembered, and you might not want to do that. Try to focus on the now. Embrace your problems instead of ignoring on them. Put all your focus on them, and on to removing them. Maybe you can't be the best in the world, but you can be something. There may be limits to what we all can accomplish, but that doesn't mean we shouldn't reach them just because we can't pass them. Just by trying to reach those limits we can sometimes discover they are much farther away than we imagined... |
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Ziff B2BB BACKTOBASICSBITCHES Since: 11-18-05 From: A room Last post: 6279 days Last view: 6279 days |
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| Attack France. Pretty much everyone who has done that gets remembered. | |||
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Sin Dogan 860  Uoodo Original Blend Armored Trooper Votoms Canned Coffee! Since: 11-17-05 Last post: 6283 days Last view: 6282 days |
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Originally posted by Silvershield But that doesn't mean that every risk isn't worth taking. I myself am currently striving(and will be for quite a while hopefully) to become a doctor. And from there, save the world. My ambitions are great but I'll be damned if I let anyone crush them. Your dreams are yours alone. Nobody can take them away from you. What is best in life? To achieve those dreams. Never become discouraged. That is the number one weakness. You begin to think "What if?" too often. Your future is in your hands. Live your life as it happens. I sometimes think this way too, but I find that being around those I love makes me feel carefree and hopeful. Honestly though, nobody can tell you how to live. |
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SamuraiX Broom Hatter Since: 11-19-05 Last post: 6279 days Last view: 6280 days |
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Originally posted by Sin DoganOriginally posted by Silvershield Ridiculous. Mathematics in itself is an abstraction, as is statistics. Success is a social construct. Do whatever you want to do. If you want to be famous, go for it. |
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Lord Myre Red Goomba Since: 02-01-07 From: Orlando Last post: 6281 days Last view: 6279 days |
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| I never thought that we would both have that same opinion on growing up. (edited by Lord Myre on 02-13-07 04:53 PM) |
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