 |
| Register | Login | |||||
 |
Main
| Memberlist
| Active users
| ACS
| Commons
| Calendar
| Online users Ranks | FAQ | Color Chart | Photo album | IRC Chat |
|
| | ||
|
| Register | Login | |||||
|
Main
| Memberlist
| Active users
| ACS
| Commons
| Calendar
| Online users Ranks | FAQ | Color Chart | Photo album | IRC Chat |
|
| | ||
| 0 user currently in Lost Section. |
| Acmlm's Board - I2 Archive - Lost Section - i declare the good days over |
 |  |  |
| Pages: 1 2 | Add to favorites | "RSS" Feed | Next newer thread | Next older thread |
| User | Post | ||
Xeolord - B l u e s - Power Metal > All Level: 81  Posts: 1084/3418 EXP: 4884196 For next: 108653 Since: 03-15-04 From: Yeah Since last post: 15 hours Last activity: 15 hours |
| ||
| This probably serves no point to this thread, but this is something I recently posted on my board that could fit this mood in some way. As for money, ... money? Can't say I know that word too well. My parents are bottom of the line education. My mom never attended Collage because I was born when she was 19. My parents married when I was 4 (for the record this isn't my birth dad I'm talking about, I haven't seen or heard of him since I was 3 years old, in other words I don't know if he's alive or dead, but I don't really care) and at the time my step / adopting father was in the military. We moved to Tennessee, and for awhile I lived in a trailer. Then we moved to a bigger duplex, then moved to a military home, then moved back to Missouri, and finally settled back into Kansas around the time of me attending 3rd grade. So recently my parents sold our great house. A house that was 4 floors, the biggest house I had ever personally lived in and almost came to calling "my first home". But that all failed when my parents "seperated" for a year. They came close to a divorce ... then they didn't. But in doing so, they financially hit themselves hard. Now I'm living in a smaller one story house, that I absolutely hate. Just look over my past, you think I like moving? It took me about a month or two when I first moved into this home to get enough motivation to put up posters on my wall. Before this, when my parents were "seperated" I went back and forth between this small house, and an apartment with my mom. It was absolute shit, simply put. I'd have to move my larger TV back and forth because at the time I didn't really want to do anything but be alone. Well as I sad earlier, my parents are "back together" so we at least get better food around the house now. Now all of this has simply made me a stronger person, actually. I'm 17, and in a couple of years I plan on getting out of here and away from this stress. So as you can see, you're not the only one who's part of a family who will most likely have financial problems through the majority of there years, but just be strong in yourself and go for the best always. How has this possibly made me a stronger person? I have a passion for being good at what I do, and I am completely for success. As much as a love my family, I don't want my family (wife, kids, etc) to go through something like this. Therefore I'm hoping to lead a more successful life than the life my parents took. I'm not going for premariatial sex or anything like that, possiblities of divorce aren't part of my plan, my dad admitted to doing almost nothing in High School, and has already admitted my grades are far better than his. I'm going to take this success, passion, and heart, and make sure to my fullest that my children are given a place they can call "home." More on the subject you can see my past is simply hell. Moving from place to place, I had to remake friends about 5-6 times, and whenever I did, it's time to move again and lose them. Finally I went to an Elementary school from 3rd grade to 6th, that's a record for me. But that's when my family become some what "inriched with more wealth" so we moved out of that area (one story house there) and moved into a better neighborhood and I attended a new Jr. High with none of my elementary school friends, again had to remake friends. Now that I'm in High School (a brand new one) I see a lot of my old Elementary school friends. It's sad though, one of my best friends perhaps, is what you would call a "wigger". He now sells drugs, probably does them himself, thinks he's the greatest thing since hovercrafts, and acts nothing like he did only 3 years from now when I would hang out with him in 8th grade. And it's safe to say he's nothing but a hipocrit now and I hate him. Another one of my good friends from the past is probably in a military school now, or a "boys home". I was considered a good influence in his life, kind of kept him out of trouble. So when we moved away from each other, I hear nothing about him other than "Oh he's in Juvi now" "Oh he tried to steal this" etc. At least I enjoy this high school I'm going to now, and I've kept a lot of Jr. High friends from the past. So, the past is almost non-exsistant to me. I'm just looking forward to the future, to get out of this place and start a real life. If you actually cared to read all of that, thanks. (edited by Xeogred on 01-25-05 02:52 PM) (edited by Xeogred on 01-25-05 02:52 PM) |
|||
Ramadan Roy Like Like ...Or you'll be wearing your ass for a hat. Renowned Otaku Level: 44 Posts: 531/816 EXP: 569705 For next: 41580 Since: 03-15-04 Since last post: 13 hours Last activity: 7 hours |
| ||
| You know, I'd like to think I live in the past also. However, there have never been any real good times for me. Because although I can look at things positively, good times I always look in the opposite manner. I look at them as transient objects that shall pass. And unfortunately, I am right. For instance, when I was six, I often cried because I knew my mother would one day leave me. Nothing happened suggesting such a thing, but it's just the thought of her leaving this mortal plane of existence that haunts me. And my friends in real life; although I have enjoyed many times with them, I don't have a kind of typical relationship. I don't hang out with them as they do with other friends in the same "group". I have barely ever gone out with them, even though I've known them for a while. (6-7 years) However, I can't keep looking on the bad side of things. It's only when I dwell on it that I get such feelings. I really can't change the way I deal with my friends. But I should value the time spent with them. We have had many close and meaningful conversations usually in private, but also laughed many times together; almost always in school. When I think about these things too much, I feel like my time on this planet has been wasted not pursuing true happiness, even though I never let my unhappiness get the best of me. While I KNOW that others live much worse than I; I can't really say that such a notion affects me. It's hard to not be unhappy and feel the worst when you encounter unhappy times. Maybe I will end up a person who is actually happy or maybe just a miserable being that dwells in the past; something I must decide. | |||
Jarukoth  IRRATIONAL EXUBERENCE!!1! Level: 79  Posts: 2456/3194 EXP: 4402011 For next: 177456 Since: 03-17-04 From: New Jersey, U.S.A. Shoes: Yes. Since last post: 8 days Last activity: 1 day |
| ||
Small world, eh Dogan?  I held back on replying to this thread, pretty much since I didn't know where to start before.One of my biggest fears from years ago was having nobody around. I'm talking about outliving my parents, living far away from any of my friends now, with no wife/girlfriend. Pretty much living out the rest of my adult years alone and unloved. However, I got to thinking about it, and there's pretty much only one thing I can do about it: Improve my own relationships, and hope for the best. If it happens, great. If not, life goes on. As we enter college, we will continue to learn and mature, and hopefully we will make at least a bit of sense out of everything life has to offer. I'm also a strong believer in everything in life happening for a reason, even if it isn't readily apparent to us at first. Xeogred's story is a PERFECT example of that. With some people, they might have not been the most social people in the world, but they make up for it with wisdom and "book smarts". Others, just may work the opposite way. For people like Dogan, high school naturally is a tough place to realize the real benefit of this kind of intelligence. If you end up having a family, that intelligence and work ethic will provide plenty for them. If it comes to pass that you do not, you with your ability will still contribute to the world and ones around you. So, even if you cannot see it, this time is being used as it should be. Oh, and don't worry about changing the way you deal with your friends. I used to think the exact same way and worry about the same thing. I always used to wait to be invited somewhere, and I still do. And the way things stand now, It seems like I'm always the odd man out too. I'll tell you what, if you want, when summertime rolls around and we have no work to worry about, I'll give you a call when I start going out again.  Geez, I usually can go on and on over subjects like these. I personally have big plans when I go off to college to take advantage of new oppertunities. However, I don't view them all as transient objects. Think of it this way: Was the way your parents raised you which helped turn you into the person you are today such a transient thing? |
|||
neotransotaku Baby Mario 戻れたら、 誰も気が付く Level: 87 Posts: 2084/4016 EXP: 6220548 For next: 172226 Since: 03-15-04 From: Outside of Time/Space Since last post: 11 hours Last activity: 1 hour |
| ||
| Wow...i wasn't alone in the anxieties of being alone in life when I was in high school. I dunno if that is a good thing but it gives me comfort. As for me, I finally got over those anxieties by realizing that I can live a single life the rest of my life. I mean, the way my life is structured, I'm nothing more than a sign post--something you see briefly then move on. As a result, the only thing I can do is make the most of the time I am seen. I too believe things happen for a reason and those who wait patiently will be rewarded. We all want those good things to come now but if they do, what will happen when they are gone if they last only for a brief time. I guess the longer we wait, the more we will appreciate what we have once we get what we want. As for the past, I am nostalgic about the past as well. Sometimes I wish those days never ended. However, if I always lived in the past, I'd never realize how much I have grown or new experience that will come. There is nothing wrong about being nostalgic about the past--it's just that when you believe that was the only best time in your life then you need to sort that out because every experience you have, there is something good in it. By finding that something good, you'll see how much better you have become as a person. So yeah, I guess the key in all this is patience... |
|||
Grey the Stampede Don't mess with powers you don't understand. And yes. That means donuts. Level: 82  Posts: 1703/3770 EXP: 5192909 For next: 16318 Since: 06-17-04 From: Kingston, RI, USA, Earth Since last post: 2 hours Last activity: 1 hour |
| ||
| Ziff, I met you six months ago, last august. Dark Lord Ziff: Yo. Dark Lord Ziff: It's evillerlegion from Acmlm's. Rale9891: alright this is the second time this has happened today. Rale9891: oh hey there Dark Lord Ziff: What's up? Rale9891: sorry, just that lately a lot of people from Acmlm's have been randomly IMing me *** Dark Lord Ziff signed on at Wed Aug 04 00:10:49 2004. Rale9891: not much, I'm just listening to some music Dark Lord Ziff: We tend to do that. I say get an allow list set up if you don't like it. Rale9891: nah, it's all good. I've met some neat people Dark Lord Ziff: Yeah, there are some nuts on that board, and then there are some geniunely interesting folks. Rale9891: mhmm Rale9891: so what do you come to me for this late at night? Dark Lord Ziff: No clue, just to chat really. Idle banter soothes th emind. Do you remember that? I do. I'm not a part of your past, but I am a part of your present. Think constantly about the past, and you'll never really be able to work with the present, and consequently, never the future. Live in the future, and you won't pay any attention to the past, and of course that means your present will be totally fucked. If you live in the present, though, figure out who you are at the moment, figure out what you want to be based off of what you were, and you might be happier. I hate my life as it is now, too. I hate it because I keep being reminded constantly of what I used to be, and I wonder what I'll become. I just contradicted myself? Not really. Because I'm telling you you shouldn't dwell on the past or the future, you should use the past to help the future. You remember pokemon toys from sixth grade? Don't dream about being a child again, be a child again. Everyone knows about all that "inner child" bullshit. Well, it's not all bullshit. Approach the world with the mind of a child, fill yourself with the discovery of new ideas and thoughts, and contemplate them as a child would. Preserve your past in your actions, the whole reason why you loved your past so much was because it was all new, all interesting. If something's become boring to you, find something interesting to replace it with. Or find out something new about it to make it less boring. Or, of course, you could always remember the belief that the past will always repeat itself. But then again, that's usually meant in a bad way...  |
|||
knuck Hinox Banned until 19-58-5815: trolling, flaming, spamming, being a general fucktard... Level: 62 Posts: 1149/1818 EXP: 1894574 For next: 90112 Since: 03-15-04 Since last post: 14 hours Last activity: 9 hours |
| ||
| Humans love the past, hate the present and fear the future.~ | |||
windwaker Ball and Chain Trooper WHY ALL THE MAYONNAISE HATE Level: 61  Posts: 1130/1797 EXP: 1860597 For next: 15999 Since: 03-15-04 Since last post: 4 days Last activity: 6 days |
| ||
knuck's right, I feel that everything in the past is automatically better than it is now, even if it isn't true (which it seldom is  |
|||
Prier Archangel Administrative Priestess. NUCLEAR SUB WEEEOOOO Level: 119  Posts: 5304/8392 EXP: 18790939 For next: 138352 Since: 03-15-04 From: Nerima Dist. - Tokyo, Japan Since last post: 1 day Last activity: 1 day |
| ||
Originally posted by knuck Bullshit. It depends on the individual. Myself, shit...present over past any day and I look forward to the future. I don't really dwell on anything too much because it just takes away from my day now. Like I really need to give something I did a long while ago a second thought. I'm self-reflective but I'd rather not think a thing over and over again so that it haunts me for a millenia either. So what if people are busy anymore. Does that necessarily mean they can't have fun either? I don't remember that being a rule unless you're a true-blue workaholic. |
| Pages: 1 2 | Add to favorites | "RSS" Feed | Next newer thread | Next older thread |
| Acmlm's Board - I2 Archive - Lost Section - i declare the good days over |
| | |
