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Sabishii Koopa Level: 17 Posts: 9/103 EXP: 24001 For next: 742 Since: 05-24-04 From: Cumming, Georgia Since last post: 230 days Last activity: 213 days |
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I'm noticing that this year is really rough for me. Started it off depressed for reasons which are now irrelevant, but the effect seems to be carrying over. Anyone else ever feel like you have so much you want to accomplish, but no will power to pull it off? That's how I feel right now, though part of me wants to think it's because I've done my best and tried to go above and beyond what's expected for the past 11 years of my academic career. I cried over an 89 and an 84 on recent progress reports if it gives you any idea of how anal I am about grades. Feeling like this scares me because I plan on doing IB next year. For those who don't know IB is an international program that's somewhat like a more intense AP. They try to make their students more well rounded and try to make their classes harder and the information stick in longer, as well as an entire class devoted to thinking critically that's taken the last year of high school. To put it shortly, I've talked to seniors who graduated with an IB diploma and they're complaining because college is easy. So, point being that slacking will be harmful for me after this year since junior and senior year is when both IB and AP start. I have so much I want to do. I'm learning programming, trying to get my A+ certification and considering going for Cisco after that and trying to decide what college and major I want, despite only being a sophomore. All the non-school related things I want to do aren't helping either. I miss reading books, I used to read three or four a month, I think it's been three or four months since I've actually finished one. I want to pick up guitar again. I really want to take up some kind of dance or tai chi as well and I kind of miss choir since I quit that. On top of Spanish, I want to learn French, Latin, German, and Japanese. I wouldn't mind Portugese, Korean, Gaelic and a few others either.I know I'm only 16 and I have at least another 20 years to accomplish all of this, but I can't seem to find the will power to even start it. A lot of my friends are complaining of the same issue, they want to do so much, but they can't seem to find the time or the will to do it. The greatest intentions are nothing compared to the smallest action, one of my teachers once told me, and it's true. I can't seem to pull myself out of this rut though. Is it some kind of thing everyone goes through or is it the fact that I'm burned out from working so hard the past near eleven years? I see juniors and seniors slacking, being happy that they're passing classes and it both scares and disgusts me. It's always been a rule for me that anything less than an A is unacceptable. I feel myself being pulled towards the slacking habits and I don't know how to stop it. I think I could if I found some use for what I was doing. Like in chemistry, it's an AP prep class so we should be going in depth, correct? Well maybe we do, but I'm not interested, because, quite frankly, I don't use thermochemistry or stoichiometry daily. Or with Spanish, I've been studying it for four years now. I can almost perfectly fake an accent, I never study and still get A's on everything we do in class and I can usually understand what I hear in music I download or on TV I have to watch for an assignment, but I get so bored with it because I can't use it. I want to read books in Spanish or watch movies, I want to translate things for people, I want to do something with it other than homework and classwork. Bah, looks like a book post. Bottom line is that I'm irked because my teachers are tedious and dull and I'm not learning much, if anything, new and because I can't do anything with half of what I've learned (Yes, I think I'll neutralize this acid with a pH of 4 with so many mols of this base |
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Dark Vampriel Lynel "Life is just a dream on the way to death." Level: 57 Posts: 571/1658 EXP: 1400355 For next: 85573 Since: 08-29-04 From: Somewhere..... Since last post: 2 hours Last activity: 4 min. |
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Seems to me that you are trying to do too much in so little time that it's making you seem irrational with everything around you. Just take everything one step at a time. I think my brother can relate seeing as he's a straight A student and constantly complains on the homework he's recieving and that the teachers he has are stupid. You have plenty of time to learn all that you want to learn. Take one step at a time and relax a little. | |||
Emptyeye Real American Level: 67 Posts: 987/2273 EXP: 2488421 For next: 104451 Since: 05-24-04 From: I DUNNOOOOOOOO!! Since last post: 9 hours Last activity: 4 hours |
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I definitely have the same problem (Ambition far exceeding inclination). I can't even count the number of times I've had ideas for songs or the like and just never finished them. Your situation seems a little different, but the concept is the same. All I can really say is that you're not alone in this regard. | |||
Ran-chan Moldorm eek, when are they going to stop growing... Level: 143 Posts: 5496/12781 EXP: 35293588 For next: 538220 Since: 03-15-04 From: Nerima District, Tokyo - Japan Since last post: 12 hours Last activity: 12 hours |
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Originally posted by Sabishii That |
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Sabishii Koopa Level: 17 Posts: 13/103 EXP: 24001 For next: 742 Since: 05-24-04 From: Cumming, Georgia Since last post: 230 days Last activity: 213 days |
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I really can't help it. I have no balance or grace and I'm not the most approachable type, so the only thing I've really had any luck in are academics. Plus, there's added stress of knowing that unless I get a full scholarship, there's no way I can go to college. I know I go into overkill with it, and maybe that's why I feel like this. But try and see it from my point of view. I'm living in a 21 year old single wide trailer and have a grand total of $300 saved up for college and a car. I'm trying to be happy because it's a home and a bit of money and better than nothing, but I refuse to end up like my mother. She never went to college and keeps the house together with social security and money she makes cleaning houses. I refuse to allow myself to end up like that.It could be worse, I know, but it's human nature to strive for better than what we already have, I think. I know I need to learn to relax, it's just hard. I've wired myself to think that fKitten Yiffer isn't an option and every pencil stroke and second I spend studying or slacking counts. Thanks for the well wishes. I'm still trying to figure out how to pull out of it, and the only thing keeping me from losing it is counting down how many days until the school's anime club meeting and how many days until the weekend. |
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Ran-chan Moldorm eek, when are they going to stop growing... Level: 143 Posts: 5526/12781 EXP: 35293588 For next: 538220 Since: 03-15-04 From: Nerima District, Tokyo - Japan Since last post: 12 hours Last activity: 12 hours |
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Yeah, I undertsand that it | |||
Dracoon Zelda The temp ban/forum ban bypasser! Level: 84 Posts: 1881/3727 EXP: 5514391 For next: 147561 Since: 03-25-04 From: At home Since last post: 5 hours Last activity: 5 hours |
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I think I have found out the reason for all this, and I may seem like an old person for saying this, but oh well. This generation is lost. There are so many choices that everyone gets the chance to make that no one is sure what they want to do and it messes everything up. I have had to renew my own ambitions and dreams not that long ago, I got really mad and just decided to do everything I wanted. It is more of a point of forcing yourself to do it, and you have to really force yourself to do it. | |||
Sabishii Koopa Level: 17 Posts: 18/103 EXP: 24001 For next: 742 Since: 05-24-04 From: Cumming, Georgia Since last post: 230 days Last activity: 213 days |
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That's the responce I seem to be getting a lot of, just having to work and try to ignore it, I mean. I have been, and it's gotten a bit better. I still get frustrated when I really think about it, but I'm learning that it helps to make small goals to work towards and working with it as I go instead of just focusing on the big goals. |
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Dracoon Zelda The temp ban/forum ban bypasser! Level: 84 Posts: 1893/3727 EXP: 5514391 For next: 147561 Since: 03-25-04 From: At home Since last post: 5 hours Last activity: 5 hours |
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Yes that is true that you should go with small goals and work with small goals, unless of course, you set both big and small goals at the same time. It could be your age, my brothers and sister went through this same thing and they were about your age, that is doing it, but I doubt it. Just don't give up. EVER! If I find out you gave up I might have to get on a plane and fly to where you live in scream in your face. Oh yeah, and sometimes when you look at something that is hard to do, you don't want to do it, but when you start working on it you start to enjoy it and work at it harder. Just get some momentum and go with it. | |||
MathOnNapkins Math n' Hacks Level: 67 Posts: 1168/2189 EXP: 2495887 For next: 96985 Since: 03-18-04 From: Base Tourian Since last post: 1 hour Last activity: 32 min. |
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Believe me, if you are burnt out now, you will likely get much more burnt out later. I've grown used to it.. *sigh* |
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