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Ramadan Roy Like Like ...Or you'll be wearing your ass for a hat. Renowned Otaku Level: 44 Posts: 32/816 EXP: 569705 For next: 41580 Since: 03-15-04 Since last post: 13 hours Last activity: 7 hours |
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| In our country(USA), we have a little thing called National Honor Society(NHS). It's an organization where students are inducted into for their accomplishments in four categories: scholarship, leadership, character, and service. Now, in OUR school, it's pretty easy for one to get in. I've been working for some time, contributing hours to service to our school. (I've racked up over 300 hours) I also have participated in soccer for three years, one of which, I was the JV captain. Anyway, I was sailing smoothly, with all my service set. (and leadership for that matter) Then, we had to send these forms to at least eight teachers, who would rate us. I did this also, although i was a bit worried. We'd had a couple of meetings about what you cannot do if you want to get into NHS. Some of those included no drinking and no plagiarism/cheating of any sort. This was no sweat for me, and everyone respects me as a good kid and hardworking student. I did notice that Mr. Brooks, my friend and school librarian who is the NHS advisor came in one day with a big smile on his face. He is a good man, and he does know how retarded our grade is. He then showed us a list of people who were caught drinking. I also saw, in his office, a paper by a student who was eligible for NHS that had circles over some areas. Next to it, in red ink, was written something like "copied from SparkNotes." The paper underneath, also by a student up for NHS, had the exact same sentences as the other in some sections. Also, if your GPA falls below a 3.5, then you are ineligible. And I did notice some students who had done so in the second marking period. I was not a student who had done any of this. Yet, all these students' bad deeds were let go.(although the low gpa was only tolerated for one marking period) About one month ago, I return from school, kick off my shoes, a bit happy that nobody else is home. Then, I see in a huge stack of envelopes, one that is from my school. It informs me that I was turned down from entering NHS from the board. I was absolutely crippled. My jaw hung down. The letter slipped out of my hands and wafted to the ground. All those years and all that time I spent doing work, thinking that it had some bearing. But what was the point? Even if I try again next year, it would be too late to be put on my resume for college. Then, my grief and anger mixed together as I pounded my feet on the ground, tears running down my cheeks. "How could this have happened?" I thought. "Now, I have nothing to show for myself. All that time wasted, I could've spent studying." (this service did bring down my grades because I didn't have time) The next day, I told my friends who were not as close to me, and they simply could not believe it. I was not being treated fairly. This was such a dishonorable event that happened to me. I did not want to tell my friends about it. I did tell my family, who tried to comfort me. My mother went to go talk to the school during that week. The day after, my friends joked around saying "Guys, I didn't get in." I just sat silently, hoping I would not be asked anything about that shit. I couldn't avoid it. At first, I said that I was accepted. But then, I said what the school said: I'll be doing it again in October. Either way, it was a painful thing to say. Matt Gallo, a guy who I thought until today had been rejected because of drinking said this was BS. He was on that list of drinkers. I just felt that he had no ground to speak on. It turned out that I received 2 points that were low on leadership. Last week, everyone gathered for an NHS meeting. I was not sure if I was supposed to come or not, so I did anyway. Mr. Brooks checked if everyone was there. It was extremely painful to me when my name wasn't called. I looked around the room, and knew that there were some people who were fools and did not belong. Some too stupid, others not leaders, and still those whom I've never seen do any service. I felt that same feeling when I received the letter from school. Except this time, it was hidden deep inside me. I left, feeling hurt even though I knew what would happen. I had gone through so much shit the past years. Sept. 11, where being a Muslim wasn't easy. And last February when my uncle, who has helped so many people, an honorable fellow, was killed by some young fools. (one had recently been released) And two months later when my grandmother passed away. I still think about them. After their deaths, I kept myself strong, and knew that I would need to be a good person from then on. But this letter just devastated me. "If only people knew my pain!" Yesterday, a sophomore at the rehearsal for the NHS induction was talking to me. He said that he felt bad for me. It made me feel good that at least someone cared. This morning, a contact lens wouldn't go in, and I accidentally lost it. I was late. I had to rush everything. And then, I went to school. All of my friends were in dress shirts/pants and ties. I was in my overshirt and jeans. Once again during my life, I felt that I didn't belong; an outcast. The bell rang, as I traveled to my first class. There my friends were. Once again, I heard such phrases as "I can't believe you didn't get in" and "That's such shit.". I felt that even though they sympathized with me, they simply couldn't feel what I was going through. All day, I would meet people who disagreed with the school's decision to keep me out. During the NHS induction, I sat there, looking at the morons who graced the stage. I was full of contempt. I didn't even clap. When the senior members gave a speech on each of the necessary qualities for induction, I merely remarked "bullshit." There was even a girl who didn't have a single honors class! While I, who had all honors classes couldn't even get in. I later learned that day that all those kids who had drunk and got below 3.5 one marking period, and cheated on their papers were still accepted. And I, who merely missed one or two points on leadership was not acknowledged. These people are not as great as I am. How would I be able to prove myself? Oh well, I thought, even if I didn't get this, I can still be proud of my good deeds. However, this doesn't fully extinguish the fact that I have been cheated. I felt powerless, for there was nothing I could do to change the past. All I wanted to do all my life was belong. I have never, ever, in my life felt that I've been part of something. |
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Kefka Indefinitely Unbanned Level: 81 Posts: 215/3392 EXP: 4826208 For next: 166641 Since: 03-15-04 From: Pomona, CALIFORNIA BABY! Since last post: 4 hours Last activity: 4 hours |
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| Well, I have a friend who was kept out because of being in the hospital being diagnosed with diabetes for over a week, so she had missed too much school to make it. I was kept out... well, I dunno why. I am diabetic too, but never missed much school. I just wasn't accepted, despite a 4.0 and none of the things you mentioned. All I have to say to you is this: At the time, yes, for me it seemed disheartening as well not to get accepted. However, I would like to let you know that the NHS is not the biggest thing in life by any means. It's not a life-changing society. It simply recognizes your academic achievement, basically. You can still do everything you want to do in life without being in the NHS. And if they weren't accepting of you, why would you want to still be a part of it? They obviously don't choose based on a person's character. You seem to know you are a good person and do well in school, yet you weren't accepted by them. And some losers were. Tells you something about the NHS, doesn't it? I wouldn't stress so much about not being in the NHS. You are better than those kids still, and not being in the NHS won't change that. You decide your future, not the NHS. You still have a lot of life to live. Just go out and kick some ass! |
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Ramadan Roy Like Like ...Or you'll be wearing your ass for a hat. Renowned Otaku Level: 44 Posts: 34/816 EXP: 569705 For next: 41580 Since: 03-15-04 Since last post: 13 hours Last activity: 7 hours |
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| Yea, you're right Kefka. I do look at it that way, but I often feel that I shouldn't express myself because I'll feel embarrassed. Although people don't know it, I am quite emotional. | |||
neotransotaku Baby Mario 戻れたら、 誰も気が付く Level: 87 Posts: 173/4016 EXP: 6220548 For next: 172226 Since: 03-15-04 From: Outside of Time/Space Since last post: 11 hours Last activity: 1 hour |
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| i know how you feel...i thought doing college and HS at the same time would get me in but well...it didn't... anyways, NHS isn't everything--i got into the top public univeristy with very little: a subpar SAT score, no community service, no clubs, no extracuricullar activies. |
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Destiny Smasher Red Cheep-cheep Level: 24  Posts: 20/216 EXP: 77554 For next: 571 Since: 03-15-04 From: NOT HERE, thank the Star Spirits. Since last post: 368 days Last activity: 43 days |
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OK, I'll be honest- I only skimmed through this, because I don't have the time...Sorry.  'I got into the NHS a year ago, and just participated in the induction ceremony not too long ago...I got to talk about the unlit candle... Anyway!  'You act as if your life has ended because you didn't get in. You have 'nothing to show for it.' What the bloody hell are you talking about? NHS, it...Well, just because you aren't in it, it doesn't mean you're not a good person, geez...It doesn't matter whether you're a JV Captain or anything like that, either. You can still get in. Now, as to why you aren't in- why are you complaining so much about it? Sounds to me like you're running before you walk, or something like that. Chill out, all things work out the way they're supposed to...most of the time... And the NHS- at least where I live, does choose based on the person. You can't get in JUST BECAUSE you have good grades. Lots of people have good grades, but not all of them get in. You have to a decent person and show that you follow the other principles- Leadership, Service, and Character. The point is that people aren't remembered for being the NHS. They're remembered because they were great people who sacraficed for others. (edited by Destiny Smasher on 03-18-04 02:06 PM) |
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Kwan Doesn't have a valid sized userpic. ||bass will be pissed :(((((((( Level: 50  Posts: 154/1137 EXP: 937111 For next: 10206 Since: 03-15-04 From: Durkadurkastan! Since last post: 22 days Last activity: 2 days |
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| Can't you appeal? You should talk to a guidance teacher or something, because your little post there sure convinced me that you ought to be in. Even if you don't you can always put some of the stuff you did in the resume. | |||
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Ramadan Roy Like Like ...Or you'll be wearing your ass for a hat. Renowned Otaku Level: 44 Posts: 36/816 EXP: 569705 For next: 41580 Since: 03-15-04 Since last post: 13 hours Last activity: 7 hours |
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Originally posted by Destiny Smasher I don't think it's the end of the world. I mean I don't walk around all day sulking about it. I'm just really pissed off. And in our school, it's like, if you get good grades and do service, you're in. It's frustrating because the things that I did to get in surpass other people's work by far. And Kwan, I tried appealing but I don't think they'd be convinced if I said "If so and so got in and I didn't, then...." (edited by Trunxy/Dogan on 03-18-04 05:37 PM) |
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Jarukoth  IRRATIONAL EXUBERENCE!!1! Level: 79  Posts: 46/3194 EXP: 4402011 For next: 177456 Since: 03-17-04 From: New Jersey, U.S.A. Shoes: Yes. Since last post: 8 days Last activity: 1 day |
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| Believe me, dude, I know how this feels. I wasn't even invited to try out. At least you were. I had the GPA for it, the only reason I wasn't invited was because I didn't have enough extracurricular points. And then, at the ceremony, not only did I see many of my friends up there, I also saw some enemies who get worse grades than I do, and more importantly, the girl whom I have feelings for. Seeing all of that made me feel as if I had been missing something for the past couple of years. I felt as if my entire school life had been wasted. Looking back, I'm sure of it. The girl I mentioned earlier I had met while working on the school play, one of my extracurriculars. I began thinking, "What else could I have missed out on? What other oppertunities have I wasted?" They say that the most important lessons are not learned in a classroom. They're right. Thanks to this, I've learned to never miss an oppertunity. Bottom Line: Get the most out of this experience as you can. It's all people like us can do in a situation like this. I know it sounds cheesy, but what doesn't kill you really will make you stronger. Keep the faith, brother. (edited by Jarukoth on 03-18-04 06:21 PM) (edited by Jarukoth on 03-18-04 06:22 PM) |
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HighSorceressDelial Buzzy Beetle DDR FREAK Slayer of Beasts Savior of Worlds Eater of Napkins Level: 31  Posts: 21/380 EXP: 181041 For next: 4322 Since: 03-15-04 From: Shimmering Waters Of Avden Since last post: 9 days Last activity: 2 days |
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| Last year (when I was a junior) I was invited to try for it to see if I could get accepted, and I didn't even bother. After I realized what it was completely I regreted. I was invited to try for it this year, and this time I did send in the papers. What is kind of confusing me, is that here, all you have to do is write two paragraphs, on on service, the other on leadership, and then someone else is supposed to write about your character for you. The other part is that if your grade point average is high enough then they invite you to fill all that out, if it's not they don't even bother. How exactly are they ranking/basing points? I mean, almost everyone last year that was accepted did pretty much nothing and got in. You shouldn't feel like you have nothing to show. Because you do. When you apply for scholarships that's the type of stuff you can put down on them. Don't worry so much about not getting in, instead start looking for other things you can apply for and use all the hard work you've done over the past years to get that. Because I didn't apply last year I've been doing other things to build a name for my self and win other things. Such as an art scholarship and 3 different art awards. If this is still really bothering you, write a letter to them. Just take your post, and edit it a bit so it would be appropriate for a letter. Don't just send it to one person either, make copies and send it to a few people. It's easy to ignore one letter, but not so easy to ignore 10. ~Delial |
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Ramadan Roy Like Like ...Or you'll be wearing your ass for a hat. Renowned Otaku Level: 44 Posts: 75/816 EXP: 569705 For next: 41580 Since: 03-15-04 Since last post: 13 hours Last activity: 7 hours |
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| You know what's funny is that when I think about it, there is nobody except me, that knows me for everything I am. I guess it's logical, I mean some people look at me as smart, others see me as dumb, some look at me as lazy, others see me as hardworking, some look at me as an angry kid, others see me as a happy person, some look at me as a fun guy, others see me as an annoyance, some look at me as a nerd, others see me as someone who has no idea about "nerd" things, some see me as stoic, others see me as emotional, some see me as brave, others see me as a shy person, some see me as nice, others see me as a cold sob, etc. And when I look at it, those are all true, because I can't be defined as a definite...anything! That is somewhat of a problem, because I am an indefinite person; it's really hard for me to make decisions with anything. But I can say one thing, I am not a nihilist, but just the opposite; everything looks good to me. Here's a sum-up of me: a complex person who is flexible for other people. When I die, I would rather be dead on account of someone else rather than my own ambitions...only because I don't have any definite ambitions as of yet. |
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Orange Pastry Red Paratroopa Level: 22  Posts: 153/168 EXP: 53220 For next: 5130 Since: 03-15-04 From: Umm... I forgot... Since last post: 575 days Last activity: 339 days |
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| Really, an organization that is completly screwed up, and is unfair, is something not worth being in. But, i'm not you, so I can understand that you've spent your whole life for NHS, and for it to not happen must make someone pissed off. I guess you need to pick up your self, and move on. You can't live pissed forever...  |
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Super Sion You BlockHead! Level: 70 Posts: 204/2472 EXP: 3002513 For next: 13298 Since: 03-15-04 From: Yo Mommas House Since last post: 29 min. Last activity: 5 min. |
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| They ask me to join that every year and I keep telling them NO! | |||
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Jarukoth IRRATIONAL EXUBERENCE!!1! Level: 79 Posts: 346/3194 EXP: 4402011 For next: 177456 Since: 03-17-04 From: New Jersey, U.S.A. Shoes: Yes. Since last post: 8 days Last activity: 1 day |
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Originally posted by Trunxy/Dogan Again, you sound a lot like me. A few things you should remember: 1) Nobody can be defined as "a definite anything". Most people have varied interests, and just can't be fitted with a complete stereotype. 2) I'm pretty indefinite too. I still have little, if any, clue what I'm going to do in college. The one thing I do want to do will be damn near impossible for me. I know I just won't be good enough for the field I want. However, knowing you, I know you'll be smart enough to survive and prosper in life, regardless of what route you decide to take. Don't worry too much. You and your freakishly large GPA will survive. 3) I never see you as an "angry" person. Sure, a bit sill now and then, but it's a part of your charm.  Oh, and if you EVER say you're stupid again, I'll but my foot so far up your ass you'll have a second tounge. Don't forget, I know where you live...  |
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Ramadan Roy Like Like ...Or you'll be wearing your ass for a hat. Renowned Otaku Level: 44 Posts: 108/816 EXP: 569705 For next: 41580 Since: 03-15-04 Since last post: 13 hours Last activity: 7 hours |
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| J-man, I know I'm not STUPID, but sometimes, when I try so hard, and I fail, it pisses me off soo much. And that's been happening to me during my entire life. I just feel so caged. And my GPA, well, it's not the fact that it's "large", but that so many idiots have a higher one than I do. To me, school is really pointless and doesn't show anything about anyone's intelligence. It only shows hard work(if that) and one's ability to comprehend certain things. | |||
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tinzeee Permaban Repeated warnings and bannings about stupidity Level: 38  Posts: 177/618 EXP: 369695 For next: 752 Since: 04-02-04 From: Australia - Sydney Since last post: 553 days Last activity: 339 days |
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It's hard when you want something and you work your hardest to get it and never get it. Just try next time to do it maybe not work as hard so that you can concertrate more, on what your doing and not what you want out of it. |
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Ambigore Shyguy Level: 17 Posts: 9/95 EXP: 22388 For next: 2355 Since: 03-27-04 Since last post: 208 days Last activity: 10 days |
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Trunxy, welcome to disillusionment.  Homer "Kids, you tried your best, and you failed miserably. The lesson is, never try." Become an urban guerilla and rip the system that's cheated you. That's the most honest advice I can give. The alternative is to suck as hard as you can... and even then, that may not be successful. Bart "I wasn't good at it right away, so I quit. I hope you're not mad." Homer "Son, come here! Heh heh heh... Of course I'm not mad. If something's hard to do, then it's not worth doing!" |
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Slash Dafter Kodondo Level: 38  Posts: 257/584 EXP: 338934 For next: 31513 Since: 04-04-04 From: E. Millinocket, ME Since last post: 9 hours Last activity: 9 hours |
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| I was kept out of NHS because I couldn't prove leadership capabilities. Grades would be the easiest thing to bring up to get into NHS, but where in the hell am I going to get experience in leadership? | |||
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Valcion YOU WA SHOCK Level: 50  Posts: 258/1139 EXP: 939607 For next: 7710 Since: 03-15-04 From: internets. Since last post: 3 hours Last activity: 2 hours |
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| no bumping. *close* |
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