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The Oobermister

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Posted on 07-05-05 06:53 AM Link | Quote
whew.....

Ok.....i have some real problems here.....first off.....i'm not sure of my sexual orientation.......im def. not straight....i think about guys AND girls but i concentrate more on girls...so does tht make me bisexual? It confuses me so...there's this girl i go to school with and im in mad love with her....she doesnt know of course....well, maybe she DOES kno...maybe she can tell.....it was weird...when i first met her, i didnt rly notice her...but by the end of the year i noticed her a lot more...and now she's on my mind everyday............she's as straight as can be....i just dont kno what to do.....i think about her a lot....like i want to sit on her lap and hug her and make out with her and hold her hand.....is it that i'm really bi? Or am I just curious? I think about her every night and wonder....what would it be like? What would it feel like? I think about me and her in bed and her rubbing my back and touching me all over......and i think about me doing it to her. And i wonder what it would be like to stick my tounge in her mouth and vice versa....and here's how i think about it....at least, this is similiar to what i wrote in my journal:

I'm in mad love with her....i'd take her to my room, dim the lights, softly play 311 on my stereo and have her take her clothes off. Then i'd take my clothes off and we'd lay down and i'd tell her i love her and we'd feel each other and i'd hold her close to me and we'd start making out and then we would fall alseep in each other's arms and wake up all warm and in my blankets....man....when she gave that report infront of our health class the other day and when she was leaning against the table, i just wanted to run up there and lay her down on the table and start making out with her...........

Why am i thinking like that tho? It's kinda sick...i mean, i'm at that age where alls i should be thinking about is boys boys boys....but im not....i mean, i LIKE boys and everything, but i like girls more....what do i do? I'm in love with that girl, but i'll never be able to let her kno................
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Posted on 07-05-05 09:09 AM Link | Quote
It would only be wrong if you didn't follow what you feel and acted on what you think others expect you to act like.
The thing is, that while there are a lot of bisexual and homosexual people out there, there are also a lot of homophobic people. It would most likely be plain stupid to reveal your feelings to her without being absolutely certain she thinks in a similar way.

As cruel as this may sound, I wouldn't suggest anything but suppressing your emotions. I'm sorry, but that's the only advice, be it seemingly cruel, that I can offer.
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Posted on 07-05-05 09:42 AM Link | Quote
In this case it would be best to suppress your emotions and feelings for the girl. Very few people understand this. It is a sad truth.

But in all seriousness, it is only right for you to explore your sexuality and understand yourself, otherwise you will not be quite a whole person. It is important that you sit down with yourself and just think on what needs be done and what you think about how you're going to get that done.

My heart goes with you.
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Posted on 07-05-05 09:54 AM Link | Quote
In my opinion, words such as "homosexual," "heterosexual," and "bisexual" are useless, arbitrary and ineffectual. What I mean by that is, a single word could never fully or accurately describe a persons sexuality; human sexuality is just too fluid, I think. So, I offer this advice; first of all, don't worry yourself over labels. Don't lose sleep over whether or not you're "bisexual." What is important is that you are comfortable with yourself, not that you categorize your feelings.

If you think you are truly in love and must be with this girl, I believe that your best course of action is first to befriend her. Get to know her as a friend, see if you have interests in common, see if she is comfortable with homosexuality and perhaps if she may even be questioning herself in the same way that you are.

Supressing your emotions is not quite the way to go in any circumstance which involves them, that'll only make you feel bad, but at the same time don't confront her in the hallway one day and declare your love for her. Take comfort in the fact that many young people go through this same circumstance and come out of it in tact. You may not end up together with her, but if you are truly that much in love with her, you'll be satisfied simply seeing her happy with whomever she ends up with.

I wish you the best.
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Posted on 07-05-05 12:00 PM Link | Quote
I agree with Slay, putting a label on yourself won't do you any good. A name like "bisexual" isn't going to make you think any clearer, if that's what you're hoping for.
With this girl, don't rush it. You don't know her well enough yet to talk to her about it, or to find out if she's feeling the same thing (there's always a chance, right?). I think the best thing you can do is swallow your daydreams and just get to know her, and maybe that could change your situation.
If you know she's out of your league for obvious reasons like being straight, then you should start working on getting over her. She's not the one for you with a barrier like that.
If you're still questioning how serious you are about your preference, I wouldn't jump into any relationship yet. You're just going to confuse yourself and hurt the person you're with.
Think through this first.
The Oobermister

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Posted on 07-05-05 09:35 PM Link | Quote
thanks you guys.....hopefully i'll be able to work everything out.
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Posted on 07-07-05 11:14 PM Link | Quote
Originally posted by The Oobermister
thanks you guys.....hopefully i'll be able to work everything out.


I sure hope so. Putting all the other advise to the side. I will make this an individuall post completely seperate from the rest. Not that I didn't have time to read them -_o.

In your very first post you said you could possibly be bi-sexual. If you ever have the choice then try to ignore the, might i be so bold as to say 'gay' urges and focus on the opposite gender. As tough a fact as it is 'straight people' are much more numerous and therefore more openly accepted in society.

Whatever you choose, good luck.
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